First I'd like to thank you guys once again from the bottom of my heart for all the kindness and understanding you all show here at Medhelp to me and all the folks that have the common factor as to why we are all here........
Second I would like to ask you guys to say a prayer {if you feel at ease doing so} for my step brother's family ( my step brother as my mother married his father when I was eight and I moved here to the south the first time when I was 9 just a little history ) his wife and children as his two daughters are still minors one being 16 years and the other 13 years. His youngest is 5 weeks older than my daughter and I am sure she will feel this hard. Well he passed away this morning after finding out he had cancer 6 months ago. I had no idea it was life threatening as his older brother had it and is still going strong after receiving treatment two and a half years ago. He told me a couple months ago his was getting worse not better. I think I posted I was having a hard day that day but did not feel like writing much about it that day on here so I didn't at that time. I went to his house last week and he looked sick but not deathly ill. I received the call this morning and to top it off received bad news from my mother while on the phone and hearing this she let me now that as I am sure the ones who read my posts already know that ( I mentioned it a couple months ago in a post ) my grandmother has been ill and will be passing on soon well as the doctors told the familyabout a month ago but from what they say know all seem to believe it this time that she only has a matter of hours to days left. They say she is now catotonic. Two hits to the heart gonna try to dodge the third one. Anyway my stepbrother one of the five sons his father had was in my opinion the only good one being one of the two of his five brothers that has not been incarcerated for lengthy sentences in state penetentary heck he has not ever been in the lock-up at all. Like I said though one out of five good ones that actually raised his children worked his entire life until 6 weeks ago bought a house to raise his children and a put a roof over their heads with his wife and was not nor a drug addict. That is what I am refering to when I mentioned being the good one and I know this is large and an important things as sadly many parents out there do not even attempt do this but I know the criteria that I am putting here to be considered good is a small one but none of his other brother's actually came close to this ideal. I guess you would have to actually know people like this ( I hope for your sake you do not but I know that sadly many of us do see people like this alot ) to know what I am refering to where they are concerned. Anyway I am out the door for a couple of hours and will be back a little later this afternoon. Thank you all in advance for the prayers I am sure god will here them as he will be bombarded with boatloads of prayers. If god had an email address I would hate to have to check it when someone here is in need of prayer with all of us here sending him messages when requested.... You guys are GREAT people I know I will never forget and that is very good in my book to leave such a good impression on someones heart one that can last for the rest of their days here on earth.............Your friend,,,,,,,, Michael


An update while I am online.. I am about to shut down and go they just called and my grandmother is asking for us all to go theree and I will go tonight  but am not really up for a two and a half hour drive but they say if not tonight then never as she probably won't be here in the morning. How do you like this man, it's the story of my life when it happens it happens full in the face force. Tomorrow at 6 p.m. I have to go to my my brother's wake gotta call him that as my ex step dad will not like to hear me say step since a lil while ago I ended up on the phone with him by accident and the blankety blankety tells me he loves me.. H a H a f-ing haha and then proceeds to tell me how much my "brother" loved me as his own "brother" it brought a lump to my throat cannot believe I let it go that far see Sara you gave me a complex about being a marshmellow.. Trying to LOL. Is that the best they can do for a guilt trip they should try a lil harder........... I am going to bury him cause I cared not because an old man wants me there.............. Oh well long long story I'll save it for never. Anyway I am off to be with grandma while she fades and then to rush home to bury my step brother............... God help me to be around that whole mess they call a family.............. Good Night all my Medhelp family.... a good family the kind I like....... And if you guys think that I am being apathetic about this thanks I tried real hard and for a long time to get to the point of apathy regarding the step dad situation.......  All my best to all of you,,,,,,,,,,,,,,Michael