Hey there fellow readers :-)

okay so news for me

ive decided to get help and support for my ED and have admitted to my family and friends that i have

"an eating disorder"

..and i need help.

Much releif on their behalf and mine!!

so yeah it doesnt start for a couple of weeks yet- will hopefully keep you posted on how its goes.

i just want the old me back...

... coz i bloody deserve it!!!!!

keep in touch,
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PLEASE HELP ME MY EATING DISORDER IS FULL BLOWN AND I DONT WANT TO GO INTO TREATMENT BECAUSE IM NOT THIN OR SICK ENOUGH!!
I GAINED AND THEN LOST BECUASE IT WAS TOOOOO MUCH FOR ME
BUT ALL I WANT IS TO BE NORMAL BUT I SERIOUSLT THINK THAT ITS NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN!!
ARRRGGGG!!!!!
support??
xx

hi there all

so sorry i havent been on here for ages..
i had to take some time off and re- elvaluate my life and where im going!
cant say i got too far though but im not giving up :-)

Thanks for all your lovely emails,
i will try and reply to them all-
i just thought it would be easier to write a big post to answer all ur questions
..the main one being that yes- im still alive!!

so ive been seeing a therapist for a while now
and am taking anti- depressents
BAD I KNOW...
BUT... they have helped so much in lifting my mood
and especially with the anxiety.
but hopefully i wont need to take them soon
but i got to the point where i was going to give anything a go to make me feel better.

soooo yah :-)

um....
not much else to report...i lost weight, gained some and am loosing weight again.
im sick too which doesnt help.
(i have a head cold.)
but therapy is helping with that too- ill do anything not to go into treatment and be fed with a tube!!
so im trying my hardest,
wish me luck :-)

love to u all,
thanks for all your support and kind words.
ill try and post more often ok!
but im so busy i cant promise
xxx

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well guys its been a while
sorry !

Um well im doing okay i guess
started taking the antidepressants
made me feel really sick for the first few days!!
but everyway im slowly feeling better
still on anxiety meds although trying not to take them much
unless i have an attack
coz apparently the antidepressants will help with the anxiety too

umm...

still seeing the doctor and psych once a week
got next appointments on monday

other than that
not much is new really

still not eating much and worried about food
LIKE ALL THE TIME

oh and i have to make a decision today
whether or not im going to make the
"official"
statement about the rape
(the one thats going to take 2 hours to do..)
So yeah. dont know....

Advice would be nice :-)
(haha that rhymes)

Hope your all having a fabb day

xxxxx