its funny this anxiety **** i wonder why it happens? how does it start? were does it appear from? my life revolves around anxiety it rules my life it decides wether i can walk the dog, take a shower, eat or sleep. how can something that isn`t visable rule my life? if i had one wish and only one wish i wouldn wish for money or cars i would wish i could wake up and be free, be normal, enjoy life again to the full. im not stupid i know life has its ups and downs i know no-bodys life is perfect all i want is for my life to be bearable. im tired of being afraid tired of watchin tv and little thoughts popping in my head "will i die?" "i have pains-are they serious?"  i just thought of another wish it would be for my own scanning machine so i could  scan myself everyday and then i could be happy cause re-assurance thats what makes this anxiety bareable so long as theres someone to answer my questions, tell me if i look pale, tell me if my lips are blue, be there when the dreaded heart attack i have been waiting for happens lol.
re-assurance???? thank god for medhelp xx

right this too me is weird!!! i have just been on a two hour walk with my not so small dog and lived!!! no pains or anything....im sooooo chuffed with myself

i am fed up with worrying day in day out 24/7 about my health especially my heart, its got to the point i dont want to go to bed incase i dont wake up. i cant cope with the chest pains, pains down my arm etc yeah i had all the tests they were normal but i still dont believe it my head rules "the tests were done a few years ago - what if things have changed?" is there any end to all this rubbish? how can i have pains if im healthy? questions questions questions re-assurance re-assurance re-assurance thats all my life revolves around!!!