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Mar 19, 2008 - 0 comments
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Well, I'm finally ready to back to work.  I did not sleep much last night (maybe 2-3 hours?), which derailed my plans to return to work today.  I felt like total sh*t!  I've been fairly lucky with the sleep thing so far - I've been getting plenty.

Anyway, I went for a walk this morning and about 2:00 PM kind of took stock of How Things Stood So Far.  

Biggest concern - still not eating much.  I've lost 22 pounds in ONE WEEK people.  WTF?  I can eat a little of nearly all kinds of carbs, some simple protein (just got more edamame - yay) , but just not a lot of anything.  I crave greens and I eat those.  I just hope I don't start craving something... weird.  I've been lucky - not many bowel issues.  Everything is fine now.

My pain that I can identify as RA/Fibro pain - right now - is in all my pressure points (fibro) and the RA regions are localized here:  ankles, knees (not bad though), hips (ouch), elbows (oooh ouch), wrists (OUCH!!! Stop typing melon-head).  My neck and lower back are also hosed.  Well, it's going to see how it mellows once this **** starts working its way out of my system more.  You know how the pain meds will mimic the pain you take 'em for!  Well, I'm waiting until 30 days to do anything unless the (new) rheumatologist tells me differently, but so far we are on the same page there.

I've also been tweaking the pain threshold because I am working out a little more, uh, enthusiastically, these days.  Got to be a lil' more careful.  

I'll see how I do with sleep tonight.  I'm going offline in about 10 minutes to start gearing down for bed.  


Things that help me

Mar 17, 2008 - 1 comments
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These are in no particular order.  Feel free to contribute!


1.  Endorphins.  Walk walk run run ride the bike swim WHATEVER just keep moving.  I was tapering down to 30 mgs of Oxy a day before quitting cold turkey but withdrawal has still sucked a**.  The exercise helps considerably - especially if you can do it outside.

2.  Love.  Wherever you can, get it and eat it up.  I don't care if it's your friends/family, Jesus, your pets, or Buddha, or Mother Nature, baby - suck it up like a love vampire.  You're gonna need it and that's what it is there for.  Someday it will be your turn to pay it forward.  In a way, you're already doing it by putting on your big girl/ boy panties and dealing with the problem that has had a negative impact to the lives of those around you.  *WHEW*

3.  Hot Tub:  I'm a giant prune.  I know melons don't turn into prunes, but...  I've spent so much time in there I am all waterlogged.  It's been a huge help and I am so fortunate to have my own.  I got a SofTub a few years back for my RA and it has kept me sane.

4.  Juice packets/ Capri-Sun:  You GOTTA stay hydrated and then some, baby.  The more you pee, well...  the faster it gets outta there.  I'm lazy AND clutzy, so these work perfect for me.  Can't really knock 'em over - all I can really do is sit on them and that only happened outside.  Honest! I go through about a box and half a day.  

5.  Get through the day, and then some: After you're able to get exercising, you're going to have a little energy.  Make a small "you" goal to accomplish every day to treat yourself kindly.  This can be anything from totally cosmetic (I'm painting my toenails today - badly) or just a simple moment to appreciate something positive in your life.

6.  Make the grateful list:  For several years, I had written a list of the things I was grateful to the women in my family on a nightly basis over email and they did this as well.  Over the last year, everyone's life has changed dramatically and we kind of fell out of the habit.  That changed since my niece was born, and we're back at it again.  It's been a lifesaver during my darkest hours.

7.  Eat!  The first few days, I didn't feel much like eating at all.  I threw up rice (RICE!!!!!) but managed to keep liquids down, including a protein shake a day.  I'm eating a little more now and strive to start eating more protein.  It's tough because my stomach is pissed!  My whole body is, really - giving me the finger and everything.  But, I digress...

8.  Massage:  Get one if you can.  I had some savings (notice, I say "HAD') that I am blowing today on a 2-hour massage and seaweed detox wrap. Hell, in one hour I am on m way via taxi to hang out at the spa until my treatment at 6 PM.  Workout room, steam room, sauna, cold pool, they've got it all and I can live there ALL DAY. They even have nap couches!!  The way I see it, it's a lot cheaper than my co-pay for inpatient care... and the hospital wouldn't have a hot man to massage me.  Woot!

9.  Take your vitamins:  A lot of us are vitamin-depleted.  I had already been taking the following for several months when I flushed the Oxys:

Calcium Citrate
Broad Spectrum Multi-Vitamin
B6 - Theraputic Dosage
MSM
Magnesium Malate
Zoloft
Oxy 20 1X then 10 1 X daily
Neurontin
Humira

At the approval of my rheumatologist, I ceased the Humira treatments until I'm 30 days clean.  Here's how it stands now...

Calcium Citrate
Broad Spectrum Multi-Vitamin
B6 - Theraputic Dosage (Doubled dose)
MSM
Magnesium Malate (tripled dose)
Zoloft (now take additional 50 mg at night)
Neurontin
Clonezepam - .5 mg - the doc said 2X per day and I don't do it until night if that.  If gives me serious taffy-head (yuck), and I really don't need any additional help feeling slow these days, you know what I'm sayin'?

I'm also seeing a naturopath (sp?) tomorrow and will fine-tune this some more.

10.  Share:  Get online, get information, connect, get facts.  Sympathize.  Thank goodness for the internet.  I would've been screwed without it.

Lastly, DO NOT FORGET TO BREATHE!!!!

Namaste, all...




Passed the 72 hour mark

Mar 16, 2008 - 6 comments
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Well it's getting easier in some ways today, but in others, well... not so much.  I've not really been able to manage solid food for all this time.  Day 2 and 3 I managed a protein shake.  I'll get passing food cravings, but by the time I get the energy and prepare it, I'm nauseated.  Well, sh*t.

I got a wild hair yesterday and decided to take a walk around sundown.  Wow - did that feel great, but boy was the timing stupid.  I was still trying to walk even after I went to bed until about 2 AM, when I got up and put on the sleep meditation cd I have.  That worked.

Well, I'm going to see if I can manage another shake and a walk before sundown his time.  ;)

Day 2 and hanging tough

Mar 15, 2008 - 1 comments
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Well, I'd have to say this is in the top percentile of the hardest ordeals in my life to date.  First, thanks to everyone who has sent encouraging messages.  It's tough doing this alone.  I have my Mom, and she's a support, but she also doesn't like to see me suffer.

I'm sick, sick, sick and I hurt, hurt, hurt.  It's as bad as everyone predicted.  I've got some long-acting Xanax-like stuff the doctor gave me, but I have to be very careful since it makes me feel like I'm moving through taffy, if that makes any sense.  It's bad enough that my limbs feel so heavy to begin with.

Mostly I've been sleeping.  I've seen the Thomas recipe and if I get any energy today I'm going to head out and look for some of the stuff, but I am concerned since I didn't ask the doc about that (didn't see it until after I told doc I flushed my meds) and since I do take 150 mg of Zoloft a day, well... I don't know about any interaction.  

Well, I'm signing off now to post in the forum real quick-like while I'm not shaking too badly...