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My Cousin

Nov 14, 2013 - 6 comments
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I'm writing this for my cousin. She is awake for only short times a day. She has to use a wheelchair. She needs help going to the bathroom, being fed, getting out of bed, and everything else. But her brother got the neighbors to put up their Christmas lights and him and his dad helped them do it. She has trouble breathing and a lot of pain. For Christmas she got a blanket and pajamas and fluffy socks and she really likes them. She likes the Christmas music too. Christmas is her favorite. If you have questions I can answer them and tell her messages for you but she says hi.

Doctor

Nov 08, 2013 - 0 comments
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I had a doctor's appointment today with my oncologist. It wasn't great. I'll post more about it later because I guess I'm really not exactly in the mood to talk about it right now.

Ugh

Nov 03, 2013 - 0 comments
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This ambien just isn’t doing it for me tonight. I have not been able to sleep and take advantage of this daylight savings time which I have been looking forward to. Also, I’ve really been craving wine recently. Weird. I just wanna sleep!!!! Plus, I have this rash all down my left leg and it’s driving me crazy! I have another rash like all around my port and I have no idea what that’s about but it’s kind of worrisome when stuff like that happens. I guess I’m in the right place for stuff like that to happen, though. Ugh.

Fluid

Nov 01, 2013 - 0 comments
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My dad came and took me straight to the hospital. There was fluid building up in my lungs so I got a chest tube placed to drain it, so now I have that little bubbly thing. There was also fluid building up around my heart, so they did a pericardiocentesis to drain that. Plus to prevent more fluid from building up around my lungs, they're gonna do a pleurodesis, which I'm pretty sure is gonna hurt. They're basically going to intentionally scar the lining of my lungs with chemicals. I saw my mom, too. My parents were basically surprised by how bad I looked and got all emotional and stuff and it kinda freaked me out. My brother is coming with his girlfriend later. I missed him. But it's not as hard to breathe now, I just hate being in the hospital.