Dec 21, 2012
Today the world is supposed to end, and I have been thinking all day I wish it would! I have already posted a question about my miscarriage and have been looking into laws and other stuff about hospitals. I'm finding it easy to act okay around other people, but when I'm alone I just break down and cry. Im still going through the miscarriage and doing it naturally a lot of cramping the past few days. My mom had told me that what I'm feeling is like labor pains. I was thinking about what she said and I'm so mad that I have to go through all of this pain for so long and I don't get anything out of it. My boyfriend seems to be fine, but I don't really know how he is feeling. I'm miserable!! I think the only thing that is actually getting me through this pain are my pain pills they make me sleep and that helps to forget everything. This is my first pregnancy and I've been trying to get pregnant for a while. I'm still upset at the doctors I know this was gods will, it's just really hard coming to terms with it. Never in my life would I think I would end up getting pregnant and then losing my baby. It's so crazy how excited and attached you get in just 5 weeks. Well to end on a good note I got my electric bill and it was only $2.09 CRAZZYY!