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12-24-12

Dec 24, 2012 - 0 comments
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Love



Happy Christmas Eve Everyone! I hope your day is blessed and full of love <3

12-22-12

Dec 22, 2012 - 0 comments
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Hope

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Baby



I'm still cramping like a b****, but I am pushing through the pain. To keep my mind off things I'm going to finish up some Christmas shopping, just hoping I don't have a melt down while shopping! My mom has been an angel helping me through my miscarriage. I am trying to think of all the good that has came out of this and I guess I get to be 18 again and I'm going to finish college! I'm trying to get my life back on track slowly but surely! I appreciate the fact that god even gave me a baby but even if it was to be with him. I am getting ready to go shopping, just thought I would post about my morning and how much better I am with everything! I hope if anyone is going through the same problem as me feel free to write me, or comment on my journals. I also pray for every woman who is going to be or has a healthy baby congratulations!

God Bless
Mocat26
xoxo

12-21-12

Dec 21, 2012 - 0 comments
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Pain

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Baby

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pregnant

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Miscarriage

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Doctor

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crazy



Today the world is supposed to end, and I have been thinking all day I wish it would! I have already posted a question about my miscarriage and have been looking into laws and other stuff about hospitals. I'm finding it easy to act okay around other people, but when I'm alone I just break down and cry. Im still going through the miscarriage and doing it naturally a lot of cramping the past few days. My mom had told me that what I'm feeling is like labor pains. I was thinking about what she said and I'm so mad that I have to go through all of this pain for so long and I don't get anything out of it. My boyfriend seems to be fine, but I don't really know how he is feeling. I'm miserable!! I think the only thing that is actually getting me through this pain are my pain pills they make me sleep and that helps to forget everything. This is my first pregnancy and I've been trying to get pregnant for a while. I'm still upset at the doctors I know this was gods will, it's just really hard coming to terms with it. Never in my life would I think I would end up getting pregnant and then losing my baby. It's so crazy how excited and attached you get in just 5 weeks. Well to end on a good note I got my electric bill and it was only $2.09 CRAZZYY!


God Bless
Mocat <3
xoxo