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Mistakes = Acceptance

Feb 05, 2013 - 0 comments

Ok, so I drank alcohol again, I blackout again, and I remember disrespecting myself again.
I am deeply a shame of what I remember I said and done while in my addiction. But I have finally accepted that I just can't drink. I am tired of the same action and reaction. I need to change or I will end up in a nut house. The depression is due to my drinking and blackouts. always praying to change and hoping my boyfriend won't hear of anything I've done or said.
This addiction has replayed itself the same over and over again. I just don't want to fall into the same hole on the sidewalk again. I have to learn to take a different road, a safer road where every step will be safe for me.

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Tired

Jan 27, 2013 - 0 comments

Damn! I seem to feel very tired and uninspired just about everyday. I can't seem to get my sleep in order,and lately all I do is sleep and eat. I have high cholesterol and my eating habits are a nightmare.
I want to start a regimen of health food and exercise at the beginning of February. I will go see doctor Monday to see why I'm always so tired and sleeping a lot.

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Not trying

Jan 11, 2013 - 0 comments

I'm very depressed and not really trying to do anything. The weather here been cold rainy and cloudy so, that alone does not help. I can't sleep or I sleep too much. That has been my life since a week befor Christmas.

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Can't deal.

Jan 05, 2013 - 3 comments

It was saturday. the weekend, and I'm very shaky plus craving. And it happened I had two drinks before dinner.
  I felt so weak that day and couldn't stop thinking about having a drink. I just couldn't help myself :(

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