Ok, so I drank alcohol again, I blackout again, and I remember disrespecting myself again.
I am deeply a shame of what I remember I said and done while in my addiction. But I have finally accepted that I just can't drink. I am tired of the same action and reaction. I need to change or I will end up in a nut house. The depression is due to my drinking and blackouts. always praying to change and hoping my boyfriend won't hear of anything I've done or said.
This addiction has replayed itself the same over and over again. I just don't want to fall into the same hole on the sidewalk again. I have to learn to take a different road, a safer road where every step will be safe for me.
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