Why cant i be a stay at home mom? i am totally putting out in the world that i want to be home with my kids. I miss that so much, i got to stay home with trevor up until he was 2 and it was great i went back to work when tyler was 6 weeks old and have worked ever since.  I love my job but i want to be able to hang out with jazmyn all day and just enjoy her age. then when the kids get home start on homework and not be stressed cause i got the house work and laundry done already.  Then i can have dinner ready when mac gets home.  I want to stop missing out on this crucial time in my kids upbringing. I just feel as thoe them and me are getting jipped. I am so mentally worn when i get home that i yell and scream and i am trying to tame that. Its just as soon as i get off work and get away from this hell hole i have to deal with mommy mommy mommy and i want to deal with the mommmy part without the stress of the hills when i have less on my shoulders.

I dont know why i am writing this i guess i just really miss being a full time MOM.. kudos to all working moms like me but i want to be home with my babys. I want to have the time to bring trevor to basketball, tyler to football and josie to soccer and have no worries about getting back to work. I dont do that now cause i dont know how it would all work.



Then you have the money aspect of things. We are broke as hell now and i am working so we definatly cant aford me not to. well i have to go home now and start up jobs # 2-7 but thankfully i get to go sit down and have dinner with my hubby since 3 of my kids are at bible study and my wife has the other.

well the frustration is getting worse today not better. I dont know if it is cause of lack of sleep with those god awful storms last night.  All i want is a little bit of energy and i know if i popped a pill i would feel great and wide awake again. however i dont want to do that nor am i.  just sux that these things even pop in my mind. My ovary is kicking my but and shooting pains into my back im taking motrin and plan on soaking in a hot bath after i get the kids to bed tongiht. hubby is out of state for 1-2 weeks so it sux bad!!!!!  well i figured that if i write about it maybe it will help. Just tired of being tired.

Des

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What is in Seven (Sevent) Flower Extract?
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How much should I take?
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Should I start/stop my prescribed medication?
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Yesterday was a great day we had a bbq and TONS of people came by.  i was in cleaning mode felt great really really great.  i sat down to smoke a cigarette and chill for a few minutes and my hubby came in to take the soround sound speaker off the wall so he could put it outside.  well it came off the wal alright with him behind it and smacked me strait in the face.  2 teeth got knocked out with the force of the speaker and him holding onto it.  I have exposed nerves on both teeth that were knocked out and holy **** it hurts like hell.  I took one pain pill yesterday about 15 mins after it happened but just a low dose one.  i had taken 4 advil an hour previously for my ovary so couldnt take any more of that and i only wanted for the pain to stop NOW!!!! I THOUGHT ABOUT going to the ER and getting something for the pain since i cant get to the dentist until friday and that is 6 days of this pain.  It only hurts when i talk, smoke, drink or eat so gee i can handle that.. RGHHH he feels so bad for it and i feel bad for him cause he is beating himself up over it.  I dont want to take more pain pills but im kinda at a loss right now.  yes i took 1 yesterday but i havent had ANY in 6 days and i was at 10-14 daily so i dont really think that is relapsing.  I guess i will try and deal with the pain and see how long it goes.  Gotta go do some house work so gotta fly.

des