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Female, 27, bensenville - IL, member since Mar 2008
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STRESS KILLS

Mar 24, 2008 02:59PM - 1 comments

TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO SUFFER, FROM STRESS AND HURT, PAIN.. I THOUGHT I WAS ALL ALONE, AND I KNOW I'M NOT AND IM THANKFUL, TO EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU. WHO RESPONED TO ME THANKS.  MY FATHER WAS A HURTFUL MAN WHEN I WAS A CHILD, RUDE COMMENTS WHERE HIS SPECIALTY. HE TOLD ME DON'T TRUST ANYONE NOT EVEN ME.  MY MOM AND DAD WERE DEVOICED WHEN I WAS 7 YEARS OLD. MY FATHER HAD VISITAION ON SUNDAYS. EVERY SUNDAY I REMEMBER GETTING DRESSED AND SITTING IN FRONT OF THE PITCHER WINDOW FOR HRS. NO DAD. 3-4 HRS LATER HE FINALLY CALLED AND SAID HE COULD NOT MAKE IT.  WHEN HE DID SHOW UP, HE WOULD MAKE FUN OF MY CURLY HAIR AND SAY IT WASN'T NEAT LOOKING.  HE TOOK ME TO BREAKFEST AND DISAPPEARED AND SAID YOU PAY THE CHECK. I WAS LIKE 10 YEARS OLD I CRYED.. THEN 15 MIN LATER HE WOULD RETURN AND LAUGH. I HURT SO BAD. NOW THAT IM OLDER I KNOW WHEN HE WOULD MAKE HIS RUDE COMMENTS IN FRONT OF PEOPLE, HOW STUPID AND IGNORANT  THEY MUST OF THOUGHT HE WAS. ALL THESE YEARS I FELT LIKE THE ONE THEY WERE LOOKING AT, AND THEY WERE LAUGHING AT ME.  MY FATHER PASSED AWAY 4 YEARS AGO AND I DIDN'T CRY NOR DO I MISS HIM.   HE CAN'T HURT ME ANYMORE, OR NO ONE ELSE.  PEACE TO ALL PICKEL