im dpoing ok for right now. some days its day by day, other days its minute by minute. but i am surviving. and i am taking active steps towards getting well. I am waiting for the day when my life comes back around. some days just getting out of bed is a challange but my day will come and i pray that it is soon. My day is comming...

I decided i am going to give the seroquel a try and see if it works for me. i was in such a dark funk yesterday and that was kinda the last straw for me. i want out of this depression. anyone who believes in orayer please pray for me and i will keep you posted as i make progress on this new drug.

whs anyone ever wondered about the lables that society uses? i have worn manny a jacket with these labels. they are always changing but do they define who or what we are? If not then what purpose do they serve. Its like someone pointing out another broken piece of you and putting a giant red mark on your back to make sure that the whole world knows what category to put you in. Its unnerving sometimes. I have been given a new label. If i could remove that part of me which was broken and replace it with something good, i certainly would.

There are times on our Journey through the huge-ness of life that we feel lost, unloved, helpless and defeated. What do we do when we find ourselves in such an unhappy state? Some of us escape into the land of danger and defeat. We "get out of ourselves" by drinking too much, or taking drugs, or feeling sorry for ourselves, or complaining, or whatever else that stops us from doing what is truly necessary...and that is taking responsibility for our own experience of life. And we look out at the world with envy imagining that everyone else out there has been given a more fulfilling and enjoyable life than we have. Not good!

There are many healthier and happier alternatives. One of these alternatives, which is simple but HUGE in its force, is to "get out of ourselves" by getting involved in the lives of others who are less fortunate. What does that look like? We help feed and clothe the poor; we help build houses for those who have no homes; we visit the homes for the aged; we read to children in hospitals...and all manner of such beautiful things.

You might be wondering why volunteering makes you feel so good about yourself? As I see it, volunteering takes you out of your Lower Self, the negative part of who you are, and elevates you to your Higher Self...the best of who you are...the part of you that is loving, powerful and abundant. You can understand why, when you find your way from the Lower Self to the Higher Self, your experience of life is transformed in a magnificent way.

So here is what I suggest: Any time you feel yourself in a depressed and unhappy state, immediately get up and get out to help the world in any way you can. And as you make helping others a part of your everyday life, any feelings of depression and unhappiness will appear less and less and less...and feelings of joy, gratitude and all good things will appear more and more and more. It works every time.

See, I told you the answer was simple, but HUGE in its force.