I decided the day I quit pills that I would write here every day to chronicle my experiences... It's funny, because the first few days I wrote morning, noon, and night... I was constantly reading other people's journals/posts to see what was in store for me during the next day of withdrawal... I checked my journal today, and the first 5 days are back to back, then there's no post until day 10, and now finally day 16 I'm writing again.... long story short... I don't think about lortabs 24/7 anymore, so I hardly even think to write a journal.... It's just a wonderful feeling to go hours at a time without thinking about pain pills.... I'm so excited to relearn myself and find out what makes me happy in general... Pills are not even an option for my life anymore, and I hope anyone out there who reads this and wants to make the decision to quit... DOES.... It's really worth it, man... I know everybody says that, and people taking the pills are like yeah, whatever... It's hell to get to the place where quittings worth it.... but like today, for example, I really felt high on life... almost like taking a lortab, but infinitely BETTER!!!!

Wow!! I can't believe it's been 10 days already...  I feel like a totally different person now... well still moody sometimes and sad... but overall, today I noticed that I really feel like my old self again.... And I like her!!  I am so thankful for everyone on this site, but most of all I'm really really proud of myself.... I did it!!  The Lortabs don't have me anymore... ha ha ha...

Thankfully the depression went away by this afternoon.... I am really excited that tomorrow is day 5... and I've come so far!!!  I know it will still take weeks to get mental balance, but my life is beginning again.... Praise God!!  There are no more leg cramps, only a little bit of bowel trouble left, and I feel clearer than I have in a long time....

Well, I never thought I'd be here 3 days ago... It's been a long hard fight so far, but I know everything will be worth it in the end... My wd symptoms are slowing down, but it's the emotional part I'm battling right now... I'm so depressed this morning... I think it's because I had to go to work and didn't have any childcare... My husband usually watches the baby, but he had to go to work, and I almost had to bring the baby to my work... Which is so not an option... So anyways, that stressed me out (but I did get someone to watch her) and I have a feeling that the altercation this morning started me on the sad path... Plus I haven't been sleeping at all.... I want this insomnia mess to end... So I have the energy and courage to face every new day.... Lift me up in your prayers...