After a couple of days of fighting it off, the panic has hit me again. I went a month nearly without feeling anything much. Starting this past sunday, I began to get depressed and couldn't get out of bed daily. It has been a daily struggle to get anything done. Racing thoughts, hopelessness feeling. Felt medium levels of anxiety at the bar tonight when we went to see a friend for a bit. Came out of nowhere and on the way home it turned into a deep suicidal thoughts. I'd never kill self but I'm thinking I need a group home or something now. I want help! This is absolutely killing my soul.