So, the friend that I haven't talked to in a while who I recently went to the wedding of had her grandma's funeral today. I have known her grandma since I was 14. I think she liked me in spite of all the times me and my friend got in trouble growing up. The older I got I think the more she liked me. This was a friend who was my best friend twice in life, once as teenagers and then again when we got back together in our mid twenties. Then she left me again for a better friend I guess, I didn't think so, but whatever. She told me she was not talking to her anymore either but it seems she is always still there and she still assumes that she has a special place to sit where family is supposed to sit. I sat behind my friend and her brother and comforted them a few times with holding and rubbing backs. I have always been there for her and her family and I do not know why she is the one always there in my way. Everytime my friend and I parted it was because of her. I had a baby, and she didn't like it or whatever and she stopped calling me. Then she got back together with a man who abused and cheated on her and I made my point known and she stopped talking to me. Then she moved an hour away and didn't let me know where or anything. Then, she got this new friend. It seems I am always the one getting hurt. I don't even know if I want to be friends with her again. This new friend is also like her moms best friend too, so how can I compete with that. Also though, she is a party animal, alcoholic. Now, I don't think that is a good thing for my friend, but obviously she likes that more then sober. So, I don't know what will happen, but I don't want to be hurt again, I know that much.