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ADDICTED TO LOVE!

Jul 28, 2013 - 4 comments
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Hahahahaha! Happily, joyfully walking in LOVE! Learning so much. Been wondering why I've been having some anxiety, getting worse. Thick as a brick sometimes! I advise others & forget to apply it to myself. Anyway, God always comes through! Received an email yesterday about green tea. I've been having it twice a day with normal tea, only thinking of the health benefits side, how L-Theanine in it, helps GABA production, which produces good feelings of joy, calmness, etc, but forgetting that the caffeine in it negates that. Mixing it with normal tea made it even more caffeine I was having. Then soon after I was having coffee with a pkt cappucino mixed with it. I only started doing the double dose coffee about 2 or so weeks ago, (that's when the anxiety started being bad again). Thought it was still part of withdrawals, but really, even thought that they can't go on that long, surely... Anyway, My hubby had started preparing it with just normal coffee. As I didn't want to offend him, as that was very thoughtful of him, to have it ready for me when I got up in the morn, & I didn't want to waste it, I began adding the special cuppacino that I like, but used to only have 1 or the other, not thinking about the extra caffeine. No wonder that within an hour of getting up, I was shaky, jittery, 'fright' feelings in tummy again. I prayed & prayed about it, then thought that God has His reasons, (a lesson), so knew it must pass & just accepted it, as I was still joyful. The last 3 days tho, this anxiety had started getting me down, & that scared me. It was horrible. Anyway, when I saw the email that said "what exactly is green tea"? I thought, oh, I think I know what it's going to say", but something prompted me (God!) to click on it. Well, my eyes were opened when I read about the caffeine & how it can cause anxiety, (Der, really!) That's where I could've kicked myself, for not connecting it to my anxiety, esp when I've advised hubby,& kids, when they've had a bit of shakeiness. Haha!. It told how to safely remove the caffeine & keep the amino acid L-Theanine, which is to pour hot water on it, soak for 45 secs, dump that water & pour more hot water over it. Still keeps it's flavour too. And that the decaf one isn't much good, as even tho it removes caffeine, it also removes the amino acid. So, something so simple as that, but what a great lesson! I thanked God of course, as it might have taken a long time before it occurred to me, that too much caffeine was the culprit! I'd even started having the green & normal tea at 4.30 about 2 weeks or so ago. Wondered why I was feeling anxious in the evening, when I never used to feel it then. For some reason, I was usually not too bad evening time. I'm not putting myself down, as I know I'm intelligent, but I can be such a dill at times. Slow as wet week! As my sister says, we can be our own worst enemies sometimes! Haha! So happy & CALM today! Trusting God is truly amazing indeed! I never stopped trusting Him. How I wish others could seek Jesus, so they can experience this, such wonder, peace & joy, such love! I never would've believed it a few months ago, would've backed off. Even tho I always believed in God, I never knew anything like what I'm learning now, listening to Joyce's teachings on HOW to use the tools we've all naturally got, deep down, but just don't know it.

STILL GOING STRONG

Jul 21, 2013 - 0 comments
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The worst of the wdls from valium & zopiclone (ambien) are over. I couldn't have done it without my faith & trust in the Lord. "In my weakness, I was made strong". It's an ongoing thing. I never want to give up. Had some anxiety off & on in the last 3 weeks, but stayed strong in the Grace of the Lord. I've found such peace & comfort. All I have to do is keep my mind on what 's great in my life & not dwell on what's wrong. I'm being healed in every way, physically & emotionally. My family are so happy too, as my joy, peace & patience rubs off on them. I never would have believed that I could find such relief from fear, such happiness, when I first renewed my faith & trust in God. I'm learning all the time, through prayer & meditating on the Word. I'm growing. Life isn't without it's pain & stresses, but I know how to cope with them now. I KNOW I'm being healed. There are more & more delights every day, in living. Signs are everywhere I look. I never felt comfortable for so many years. How tense & stressed I was! How very ill I was. Now, all I can say is WOW! I have a "peace that passes all understanding"! I don't go about preaching. My actions & attitude says it all. I am so grateful! The answer was right under my nose all along.

LIVING IN JOY!

Jul 21, 2013 - 0 comments
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Phew! Thank God I got through the last 2 months in one piece! I've become so happy, now that I'm free of valium & ambien, Tramadol & now Zoloft. Wow! What a difference since I renewed my faith inGod. I could not have got through without His strength & comfort, when anxiety came. Jesus has been my comforter & has given me peace like I've never known. Such calmness comes over me when I cry to Him for help. That's all I have to do. Call for Him, bring myself back to Him & He's always there. Stopping those poison meds CT, was the best thing for me. If the psych had sent me the scripts, after I'd rang twice in a week, I'd still be doing a taper plan. I'm so thankful she didn't send them, or maybe she did & they were lost in the mail. I don't care about all that anymore. It forced me to go CT, so I'm grateful I didn't receive them. My mood is joyful, patient & calm, most of the time. I still have days when the 'fright' feeling hits me in the tummy, but I know what to do now. Rest in the arms of my Jesus. I never would've believed I could feel such peace & rest & comfort. I would've scoffed at this kind of faith, 6 months ago.  Praise God I'm saved from all that misery I felt while on those meds.

NO ANXIETY

Jul 20, 2013 - 0 comments
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I don't get this anxiety tracker. It should show a zero when I don't have anxiety. Oh well. A 1 will do. Not anxious, but do feel an excitement at what the day may bring. Living in the moment though. Whatever happens, I know I can cope. I don't have to react with panic or impatience. I'm walking in peace & in love. I feel a calm delight.c