Today after dialysis I was watching a little bit of TV, and sports center was on. They put on a breaking news story that N.Y.Giants player Plaxico Burris, pled guitly in court today of a gun charge and that he would be given a 2 year jail sentence.
Micheal Vick was just released from prison and house arrest, on the dog fightin and dog killing charges. Dante Stallworth of the Browns had to serve time for killing a man while driving DUI. Then in baseball we have the steriod scandels, players like Roger Clemens(never tested postive), Barry Bonds(never tested positive), Jose Canseco, Rafeal Palmerio,and so so many others. Plus all other kind of athelets charge with all kinds of different drug charges, sposal abuse, and many other crimes.
Then we have these all famous hollywood, and music stars.. there are so many types of crimes and other offenses. thy have ben accused of and many convicted. Drugs, DWI's, murder, shoplifting..and so on.
These are the type's of people that are kids, and grandkids look up too as role models. I am sitting here thinking do we as parents, and or grandparents, really want this to be?
Personally I feel the number 1 role model for our kids or grandkids should be looking up too, is Jesus Christ our Lord and savior.Who better of a role model then Jesus? Then after our Lord I feel the father and mother should the kids role models, if they see mom and dad, living a good christian life, doing the things they are suppost too, the kids would be better off. Grand parents play a very important role in this also. Grandkids look up to the paps, and mama's and if they see them walking the christian life, it will make a big impact on thier lives.
Now sport heros are not a bad thing, but famous people are just what?..people and seems like in this day and age most hollywood and sports figures are falling faster then the stock market did last fall...so please let's get our kids and grandkids on the right track, and have them look to the right role model. God first, parents, then grandparents, and I truley believe the kids will be whole lot better off, and in turn the world..thank you...God Bless...brian

In a journel I wrote about how my marriage and family went down the tubes. I am going to make sure that my grandkids are raised in a good Bible believing church. I know that not raising your kids in a good church in such a bad mistake, and in this world today we cannot afford to make that mistake.
I am praying every day that my kids will come to know our Lord Jesus as thier savior. My youngest daughter is now going to church with me. She has gone the last three weeks, and by the questions she is asking I can tell the Holy Spirit is working on her. The other two kids are still resisting, but I am standing on the word of God that they will be saved.
Now back to my grandkids, last week was vaction bible school at church. My oldest grandson goes to church with me, and attended VBS. On the Thursday night of VBS, he went forward at alter call and said the sinners prayer, he is only 5 years old, but he aid the prayer. He is asking questions, plus wondering why mom and dad aren't coming to church. God will work through the kids to get the parents saved. My midle grandson will soon be going to church with us, and my granddaughter when she is old enough will be right along. I feel it is my duty and my obligation to make sure they are raised knowing who our Lord and savior is and what he is about.
I will not let history repeat itself, I believe our time here is short we are in the end of times..and satan is going to attack the children any way he can. I am going to make sure that my kids and grandkids are covered in the Blood of Jesus. History will not repeat itself, I made that mistake with my kids, not keeping them in church and close to the Lord.. God Bless all...Amen ...brian

God has many ways of teaching us lessons...some by things we bring on ourselves ( like drug addiction) others love, forgiveness,which are probably two of the most importanat ones, because if you can't forgive someone, and love them, then how can we learn to love ourselves.
Well the lesson I am learning at this present time is patientice. This is a tough one to grasp, at least for me. As many or most know I need a kidney transplant, been on dialysis for almost 6 years, well next month will be 6 years. I have gone through gastric bypass surgery to get myself eligable, which that surgery is one of the best things I ever did for myself.  I have lost over 180 lbs, and did some other things to get ready.
This past April my oldest daughter and I went to the transplant center to see if and what I had to do to get activated on the transplant list. While there my daughter ecide on her own that she wanted to be a doner. I was dead set against but after her telling me I didn't have a choice and the info they provided I said yes.
I has a list of things that the transplant center wanted me to get done again. Which I made sure I got them done as fast as I could. after about 6 weeks my daughters blood work came back and we were a match but the hospital wanted to redo a couple of test. Autymn went gave more blood and everything was satisified. We were on her last group of testing she had to do, some were female type test, because of her having kids and the other was just more blood.
So I am really getting amped, thinking oh my no more dialysis. by the way I and many others have been praying that the "Great Physician" the Lord Jesus would touch and heal my kidneys. So one way or the other I will be healed, either by God's touch or by the surgeons who hand will be led by God.
Back to the story, last week Autymn, calls and tells me she has 4 infected impacted wisdom teeth. She goes to the oral surgeon and he puts her on 2 weeks of anti-botics, and when she has the teeth cut out, we will have to wait 4 more weeks to make sure there is no infection in her body.
I was a little upset and down getting this news and God told me "hey patientice" so this is a lesson I am learning. Who knows I still believ what the Bible tells me. Jesus promised that we can be healed,
One way or the other patientice I now know is a true virtue, I will look at many things so differently, sitting at a red light, standing in line at the store, and the best of all having more patientice with my 3 grandchildren..so God makes everything work out ofr the better ofr us..Amen,,, God Bless....brian

Being a Born Again Christian places many responsabilties on oneself. They are good responseablities, because we are suppost to be doing the Lords work. trying to win souls for our Heavenly Father. This is the most important thing a Christian can do. Seeing whats going on the world today, and believing the Bible to be the true of God, time is short. The last days are upon us, there are wars, killings of all sorts, and all other kinds of horrible crimes, and immorality, like the world has ever seen.
Things that are going on with the weather, earthquakes, and other natuarl diseaters and happening at a unprecadented rates. Today alone, there were back to back earthquakes in Baja CA. Hurricanes cyclones, tornadoes, global warming, are all types of events perdicted in the book of Revalation.
I know there are some who are going to say, that people have been saying things like this for thousands of years, but the signs are so so strong today. as a Christain, I believe it is our duty to follow scripture and tell people about, what is happening. Jesus said, If you are ashamed of Me, then I will be ashamed of you in front of My Father.
I am not writing this journel to start any grief, I am writing this because it is my belief it is my duty  to tell people of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. this is part of that Gospel to tell people that His return is going to happen. it will be soon. Soon may not be in a year or ten years, but in Heaven time ten year is not much. People we must be ready because satan, is coming on stronger and stronger in this carnal world.
God gave us the biggest sacrifice as He could..John 3:16 For God so loved the world He GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON. that who should ever believe in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life..Amen God bless...brian