Pain ruined my sleep Sunday night. The pain was so bad that I stayed home and tried to sleep it off - no luck. So, I went to the ER on Monday evening and got a shot of Dilauded. This made me sleepy a few hours later and I slept great and woke up with less pain. The pain climbed through the day and eventually, I was where I was before the trip to the ER. F*****g doctors are so afraid of my addiction and losing their licenses that they won't adequately treat my pain. I will give the physiatrist one month to bring down my pain levels or I will kill myself. It's getting that desperate. Pain has destroyed my life and suicide will be a relief.