ok - so I was on track to have my transfer on feb 4th as long as my cycle started by the 18th of Jan and of course my lovely body did not start until the 21st so I assumed my trasnfer would be pushed back till the 19th of Feb since that is the next avaliable time slot however after talking with the doctor he gave me the ok to keep my orginal trasnfer date of the 4th since I have never had lining issues there is a slim chance that at my lining check i could not be ready and have to push it back to the 19th anyways. so my question to you ladies is should i just proceed with a transfer on the 4th and hope for the best at my linig check next week or should I just move it to the 19th of feb? I am so confused about what to do part of me wants to do it as soon as possible cause I am impatient but then the other part is like will if you move it to the 19 then you will for sure have a good lining but like i said the doc said they only neeed a lining of 7 and mine is always at a 10 or 11 so he really feels that there will be no issue. and I also found out that I dont have to meet my deductible this year since I got a different insurance plan all I have to pay is a co-pay of $20 so I will not be out to much money if I go for the lining check and they say I am not ready. what would you ladies do if you were in my shoes ???

I just wish i could get ahead on bills and not have to worry about money anymore.


Ok back to reality i need to find a new job that had better insurance that will cover my infertility treatments I hate that I have to wait for another year or two to do any treatments because we have car notes and rent and all this other crap that means nothing to me now that it is standing in the way of me being a mommy it just ***** I remember when I bought my stupid Tahoe I was so happy because I thought I will have at thing filled with a babies in no time and no its just me and the hubby and it ***** I would give all the material things i have to become preggo. I never thought this would be my life and I just keep getting older and all I can think about is my stupid eggs probably have cobb webbs on them. I just wish there was a way to predict my future so I could know that one day I will be a mom at least then I would have a little more peace in my heart but right now I just feel sad and wonder when will god bless me. Sorry I just needed to get a few things off my chest.

Oh an not to mention today is my 2nd anniversary and I though for sure I would have a baby or at least be preggo by now I am just starting to feel like it may not happen for us and we should start planning our future without and kids.

DH just got sperm analysis back and his sperm count is low I know that it only takes one but i also do not have regular cycles and am really worried that I will not have any kids. we have been trying for a little over a year and no BFP yet. We have an appointment on May 12th  with a urologist to see what they say.   I just hope that there is something we can do to help  improve his sperm count . Also I have  taken clomid 50 mg for 6 cycles and are now going to move to 100 mg clomid and metformin for the next cycle .