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I need a VACATION and so does my poor, wonderful husband...

Jul 09, 2009 - 2 comments
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Heard from my gyne today, even tho the mammo and ultrasound did not show the lump, he wants me to see a surgeon, so she can feel it herself.  A woman, and she only does breasts!!!  So, that's a good thing!!  My dexscan came back showing that my spine is great, (YAY!!), but, my hips are thinning...my hips hurt all the time, can't even sleep in a bed, have to sleep in a recliner...so, I have to see an orthopedic doc, for that. Just added to my list!! LOL
I went to the eye doc yesterday...I have a cataract in both eyes and the right one is ready to be removed, I am darn near blind in that eye, have to set up surgery for that...just put it on my list!!  I was thrilled tho because, the doc, did a Schirmer's test on my eyes to see how much tears my eyes make, low level can indicate Sjogren's Syndrome, which I have suspected for quite awhile.  He also agreed to give me a script to have an SSA & SSB blood test, which are used for diagnosing Sjogren's...I was so excited, that I might finally know, one way or the other, if I have it, and 2 months before my appt with a Rheumatologist, who would have done those tests at that time...there is something strange about being so excited about a possible diagnosis, but, I know alot of you have felt the same way, so I feel safe sharing this excitement with you...thanks to all who read and comment...:0 joyce

OK Had my diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound ...

Jun 25, 2009 - 10 comments
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So, I had my diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound Monday.  They had to take extra pics of the rt breast, the one with the lump, it hurt for a couple of days after.  Absolutely nothing showed up on either one...they even had the radiologist come in and try to find it...she could feel it, but, it did not show up!!  I'm waiting to hear from the doc...it bothers me that a lump the size of a pea doesn't show up!!!  Maybe, it depends on what the lump consists of...so...waiting...again.

Saw Endo today.  He didn't laugh at me, just tried to explain away my symptoms and my checklist...when I mentioned Sjogren's, he said "that is very rare."  I said, "but, not nonexistent."  I immediately thought of all the people on MH that have been diagnosed with it, he did offer me fibromyalgia...guess that one is not so rare!?!?  The visit was not a total loss, he had the nurse draw blood for a freeT3 & T4...YAY!!!!!!!!!!!   When I was looking for an Endo, I found him and another one, a woman.  I couldn't get in to see the woman until July 22nd, so I made that appt and made one with him, too...so, here is my thinking...if the FT3 & FT4 come back off, I will keep my appt with the female doc and dump him...if they come back fine, then I'll cancel my appt with the female doc...Hope I'm making sense, feel all discumbobulated this a.m.  I should get the results in a week!  Seeing the dentist tomorrow to start work on my getting a partial to replace all the teeth that I have lost to dry mouth...you know from that rare disease called Sjogren's!  It is so hot and muggy here on the outskirts of Chicago...I hate the heat...give me some nice Indian Summer weather or even fall!  I thank God every single day for air conditioning!

Stick a fork in me...I'm done!

Jun 19, 2009 - 11 comments
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I feel this amazing Calm has come over me.  The kind of calm you feel when you have finally made a very tuff decision and you feel the weight of the world slide off your shoulders...I have decided to put a stop to my disappointment in my daughter. I am done jumping thru hoops and always letting my feelings slide, just so she would show me some attention and affection and be there for me as I am always for her... I have tried and tried to maintain, what has become,  a one-sided, totally unfulfilling relationship with her.  You can, and do deal with always giving and expecting nothing in return when they are young children, but, by the age of 35, and a mother of two herself, you begin to expect or desire, a fair amount of giving and taking, a relationship on a little more even footing...I listen and support you and you listen and support me.  When did my precious little girl turn into this self-centered woman, who is a stranger to me, only going thru the motions of giving a damn about anything I am going thru?  It doesn't matter when it happened, it happened!  So, I am done.  Does that mean that I don't love my daughter?? No.  Will I be there when she needs me?? Yes.  I'm just thru taking the initiative, all the time, to make this relationship work.  If I was a gambler, I would bet a lot of money that she won't even notice...So, that is how I feel,  right this moment...will I stay strong in my resolve?  I don't know, I will take it, one day at a time...

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Jun 08, 2009 - 10 comments
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I FOUND A LUMP IN MY RT BREAST WHILE TACKING A SHOWER TODAY...WTF????  WILL CALL MY GYNO LATER TODAY.  WHEN IS THIS **** GONNA END??

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