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Baby no longer on board
Jun 23, 2009 12:00AM
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I had a miscarriage today. I was only 5 weeks and 3 days. It is the most hurt I have felt about a loss since my grandmother died last june. June is just associate with bad memories for me...I don't think I like the month June anymore...I am depressed to a point of suicide and can't take this pain physically or mentally...
Bipolar I Craziness
Bipolar I Craziness
You go by the MedHelp ID of CollegeBeauty and I would bet that you really are a beauty. Dear heart, I am so sorry for the loss of your baby. I know what it's like to feel devastated and not wanting to face another day. I have been there many times.
For what ever reason, I chose not to take my life and was thrilled that I awaken to the morning light. I promised myself that absolutely nothing was worth taking my own life. I am one of the those that believe that when we get to Heaven (yes, I think that people that commit suicide do go to Heaven. Committing suicide comes from a very troubled mind, a mind that is not thinking straight. Would God forgive someone that was sick? So desparate for relief, that they would commit suicide? I truly believe that he does welcome those that are ill, into Heaven.)
I also believe that when we get to Heaven, that we are given a life's review. Past and present and most importantly future. I believe that God shows us everything we missed in this life, because we chose to end it early. We get to see what was lying just ahead of us, in the way of happiness and joy. Even having that baby that you thought you couldn't have. I believe we then regret our decision that was made in haste, in our moments of utter depair to end it all. We are also extremely saddened when God shows us what happens to the people that we have left behind. We get to see their grieving and suffering, because we chose to take our lives. We are saddened for what we did to our family and friends, in our moment of dispair. We just want to go back to Earth to start all over again and try harder to enjoy the good things that do happen in life. But as they say, once you make that decision to leave this Earth through suicide, we don't get that second chance. I believe that we will also grieve for cutting our lives short. It's something to really think about.
Make a promise to yourself today. No matter how bad you are feeling today, give yourself just one more day. The tomorrow if you feel that sadness return, promise yourself yet another day. You will soon see, that life is not full of sadness and something will happen in your life to give you back the joy of living....just by giving it one more day.
One more day College Beauty. Just one more day and a day after that, until you finally realize how much happiness can come into your lives, if you are patient and willing.
I pray that you will never think about suicide again. You are worth having a good life. Mark my words, you will one day see that I was right and you WILL be happy again....That's a promise made to you, by God. He hasn't left your side, he's carrying you right now and weeping with you, for the loss of your little one. It's his wish that you stay here among us and see what joy isl coming your way. All is not lost...Be strong and believe, dear heart. Life IS worth living.
All the Best always,
Heather
From the MS Forum
For what ever reason, I chose not to take my life and was thrilled that I awaken to the morning light. I promised myself that absolutely nothing was worth taking my own life. I am one of the those that believe that when we get to Heaven (yes, I think that people that commit suicide do go to Heaven. Committing suicide comes from a very troubled mind, a mind that is not thinking straight. Would God forgive someone that was sick? So desparate for relief, that they would commit suicide? I truly believe that he does welcome those that are ill, into Heaven.)
I also believe that when we get to Heaven, that we are given a life's review. Past and present and most importantly future. I believe that God shows us everything we missed in this life, because we chose to end it early. We get to see what was lying just ahead of us, in the way of happiness and joy. Even having that baby that you thought you couldn't have. I believe we then regret our decision that was made in haste, in our moments of utter depair to end it all. We are also extremely saddened when God shows us what happens to the people that we have left behind. We get to see their grieving and suffering, because we chose to take our lives. We are saddened for what we did to our family and friends, in our moment of dispair. We just want to go back to Earth to start all over again and try harder to enjoy the good things that do happen in life. But as they say, once you make that decision to leave this Earth through suicide, we don't get that second chance. I believe that we will also grieve for cutting our lives short. It's something to really think about.
Make a promise to yourself today. No matter how bad you are feeling today, give yourself just one more day. The tomorrow if you feel that sadness return, promise yourself yet another day. You will soon see, that life is not full of sadness and something will happen in your life to give you back the joy of living....just by giving it one more day.
One more day College Beauty. Just one more day and a day after that, until you finally realize how much happiness can come into your lives, if you are patient and willing.
I pray that you will never think about suicide again. You are worth having a good life. Mark my words, you will one day see that I was right and you WILL be happy again....That's a promise made to you, by God. He hasn't left your side, he's carrying you right now and weeping with you, for the loss of your little one. It's his wish that you stay here among us and see what joy isl coming your way. All is not lost...Be strong and believe, dear heart. Life IS worth living.
All the Best always,
Heather
From the MS Forum
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