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It dawned on me

Jun 28, 2009 - 0 comments
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chelsey

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lil matt

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VBS

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pizza

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Borderline personality dis

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therapy

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money pit

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OCD

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Sexuality

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disordered eating

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crazy

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bible camp

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bible thumpers

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tolerant

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pastafarian

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steve

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austin powers

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jon

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pirates of the carribbean 3

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caught

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french fries

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steve's hat

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hypnotized

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System of a Down

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Guitar

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9gag.com



Chelsey still hasn't told lil matt. I am profoundly disapointed in her. I really want me a piece of pizza right now. I am so hungry today...VBS starts tomarrow. Today I just..woke up late, showered, looked up borderline personality disorder, which sounds scarily like me. I would like to look into it, though I'm not sure to what avail because all it calls for is the addition of a crazy amount of therapy. Sounds like a money pit to me. I hate the small amount of therapy I already go to (I haven't been in over two months). I make it very awkward and every concern I have slips to my mind. However, I have been searching for some more validitity in my life, and so trying to pin myself down. It's driving me madder, but hey, you know, gotta have goals. I have never in my life been less sure who I am, actually. But I'm still too much of a ***** to even talk about it in an online record of my life. Maybe, you know? I also have a lot of strange little habits that would probably fit best under OCD, but I stronger believe that is one diagnoses I do not carry.  For one, I am not clean. And these things don't distrupt my life, they just are. Maybe I just need a little closure. Oh, and religion. The irony of the next week- VBS is a bible camp. I always get a kick out of it. This will either be my tenth or eleventh year. I work there now, and I know a lot of the other kids that work there. Not well though...because I do not attend church, expecially not with all those absurd bible thumpers. But I do like working with kids, for a little while. Not a long time, but a week is not too bad. It's only maybe 4 hours a day, but I like it. I hate thursday, because it's always "convert your kids to christianity" day, and I just can't do that. How much of a hypocrite would that make me? I am religiously tolerant, for the most part. By that I mean I let you be what you will, even if I don't agree. I don't have the disapline for anything too organized, really.  If pushed, I consider myself a pastafarian =]. Ain't that the greatest?

Steve came over, I missed him, I missed him, I missed him. We watched Austin Powers 3 with Jon. Then potc 3. Then went upstairs and watched austin powers 2. Got caught. Embarassing. Prefer not to talk about it. I made french fries. I burnt a lot of them. Some were ok, most were barely ok. I need to remember to grab steve's hat. I'm learning to play Hypnotized by SoaD, on guitar. 9gag.com is funny. But then again, I am immature.

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