had some issues today

Had a good weekend.  Full of laughter and activities.  Well here comes today.  My man friend takes off to work and I was actually looking forward to him coming home.........well he does come home, goes out to the garage to dink around with his bike.  Found some new scratches on tank and gets just pissed.  All of a sudden i am thinking what the hell, you think you have problems look this way buddy.  How dare you.  Wish a couple scratches was the only thing i had to worry about.  Then after fuming for a few minutes due to him not throwing himself at me as in how was your day, how do you feel etc. i realized that this man is not an addict.  He had every right to be upset.  I need to put myself out there.  I cant expect him to know what i am feeling.  The evening progressed better.  I was tired and he said lets go and take a short walk so we did.  I am so tired but sleep doesnt come so easy anymore.  I can watch the clock for hours and yawn.  I dont want to consume my day with unnecessary things but am afraid if i let my guard down my stubborness will take over again.  I am just too tired to think straight tonight.  Goodnite.