1st Entry

I was really sweating in bed this morning, not from the sun but from the thought of leaving the house to go to work.  It's now at an all time low.  The sun shining makes maters worse. Why can't people just stop looking at me and smirking to themselves.  I can't stand it.  I finally made it to work everyone thinks i have a sun tan but its just the panic attack in the lift with peoples eyes fixed on the back of my head.  I hate this life at the moment. One day at a time i keep telling myself.  I don't want to self destruct anymore.