*SIGH*...

well i'm on now.. week 3 of my soy/wheat/gluten/lactose diet..i've screwed up a few times but I know for sure soy is one bad sucker..

I just started lexapro and i'm hating every minute of it..I was also given xanax for emergency anxiety..I'm not sure if I can function like this or go to work..or begin working.. If I don't find a job soon i'll have to file for disability and beg parents for help.

I have upper left abdominal pain in my back ..even when i'm empty after prepping like a colonoscopy so I suspected kidney ...course that was ruled out ages ago...which makes me wonder if that's my adrenal gland.  I had a IVP of the kidney and multiple ct scans so you'd think they would have spot it but... I dunno...

i've run across adrenal fatigue.. i'm having anxiety/panick attacks/insomnia and my thyroid is fine.  I suspect something might be up with my adrenal glands (either too much or too little..) so I bought some isocort from amazon today..lots of people have noticed more energy (which I have zero..) plus I have no appetite..i'm upping my vitamin C and will continue my multi-vitamins..hopefully I can get some sleep.  My IBS symptoms are slowly improving on 2 tablespoons of fiber daily..so I'm going.. still constipation but a better improvement since going on the depressants.. I think anxiety is the root cause of all health issues but what is causing the anxiety?  Just a bad anxiety disorder?  Or adrenal's messed up?  Wish I had some money to get tested.. I cringed just buying $30 worth of pills...

hope this ends soon not sure how much longer I can go without zero financial support :(