I am excited and can't wait!

I am not clean yet...as I am tapering...the reason being the vacation or trip to my brothers we have planned for this week is not a good time to be in w/d's. I am actually getting very excited to get home and get off the da%^ pills. I want them out of my life....my home....my mind. I know I will have w/d's and I have been preparing myself for the worst and secretly hoping for the best. But I have 2 weeks of nothing planned and so that will be good. I can't wait to have my life back. I am concerned about one thing and that is my back problems. I have bulges from the cervical all the way to my lumbar. Lately my left leg has been having shooting pain down to my knee and when I was at the store today my leg started giving out and felt like I wasn't going to be able to walk. I am going to the dr in the morning but I don't want the usual fix of lortab. I would just like to make sure my discs aren't bulging more. I know I will need to try and be as active as I can during w/d's and maybe that can help my back...I don't know after the store incident. All I do know is if my trip to my brothers wasn't this week I would be quitting today. But we have planned this for so long and we can't cancel and I can't be sick while I am there. I know that sounds like a big excuse but it's not. I want out of this stupid pill fog I want my life back so bad and I can't wait until next week when I can start it....sick or not! I am sick now if you look at the big picture....sick with the disease of addiction. I am so done with this. Who is excited about w/ds? Probably only me...I may not be singing that tune next week but again preparing for the worst hoping for the best! I can't wait til I can post 5 days clean.....25 days clean.....9 months clean....5 years clean....and on and on and on!