KISS

KISS = keep it simple stupid..... i first heard this when i wuz lil and helped my gpa work on houses, mostly roofs. then i heard an old weed grower use the same thing in reference to his growing.....now i have come to see i can apply it to my addiction. see , we make such a fuss about getting clean. we beat ourselves up, relapse, and get suked back into the way of life we were dedicated to leave. mostly because we dont KISS.... i know that i put all my focus into fighting it, and i get worked up when i feel weak, but if i just remember to keep it simple, i can step back and relax n breathe a lil..
by keepin it simple, i mean i have to learn to not sweat the small ****. no more frettin over work, the house , or car. it will all work out one way or another, so i might as well not let it drive me frickin insane!!

simple things are wut make me happy ne way. i used to have to have the best clothes , shoes, rims, guns, etc... but now all i want is the simple things that make me happy.
the smell of my kids after their baths,  seeing em happy when they are coloring on the sidewalk with chalk, seeing amanda smile when she gets something that makes her happy (like me at home LOL), seein em all full from the food i cooked, eating ice cream in the front yard with the whole neighborhood... those are the simple things i need to focus on, the things that make me feel whole and alive.

so for everyone out there, KISS......

thanx to God for another beautifull, sober, fufilling day, and thanx to all here for continueing to fight..... much love