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Jul 05, 2009 - 4 comments
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I've just been asked to get out of bed and sit in the chair on the other side of the room by my partner as I'm keeping him awake and he has work in the morning. Hes so exhausted but I'm so desperate to be close to him whenever I can and him asking me to get out of bed has really upset me and made me feel like he doesn't want me around him which I know isn't true. I feel like my depression has taken over my life. Its caused me insomnia and is putting a huge strain on my relationship with my fiance. It seems like everything is one long up hill struggle and I just need someone or something to cut me a break. I shouldn't have to be dealing with this at 19 years old :(

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by lbedgood, Jul 05, 2009
wow...my name is spelled  the same.I have insomnia too and depression.  I feel I am losing my family with my problems.....what are you doing about it?

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by Leanne1989, Jul 06, 2009
I honestly don't know what to do. My partner is trying is hardest not to get annoyed with me but I can see it on his face. I have a friend that lives with us and he is doing the same as my partner. I ended up getting to sleep at 5:30am and I woke up at midday. I seem to have this inability to sleep during the night.

My family deal with things badly. They stick their head in the sand. When I told my dad I was on anti-depressants I got this huge lecture about how there are people more worse off than me. It was about as unhelpful as it gets seeing as I'm a real daddys girl and just needed him to understand. What are you doing to cope with it?

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by Scooby1298, Jul 06, 2009
Leanne,

Talk to him, find out what it is that is making him want you out of the bed.
If he is a shift worker maybe he has his own sleep issues, that he has not told you about.  I was a shift worker for over 30 years and I can tell you there were lots of times when I felt like chucking things at the wall purely because other around me were rabbiting on when I was trying to sleep.  I don't know what meds your on but it may be worthwhile talking to your doctor as well as your partner.
Just to let you know, my wife and I have had separate bedrooms for over 18 months, whilst we have been waiting forher to receive surgery.  She had it last Friday and has been advised to stay in separate beds until all the sutures internal and external heal, and so it goes on but I know she loves me and we both now take it a day at a time.
Be patient and talk, listen, and reason things out between to two of you I'm sure you both can resolve the problems.  
regards
Scooby1298

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by Leanne1989, Jul 06, 2009
Scooby,

Its not like that at all. He works 9 till 5:30 to provide for me and keep a roof over my head and food in my mouth. He didn't want me out of bed but he really needed to get some sleep and I can completely understand that. It just makes me feel bad knowing that I'm causing him extra stress due to lack of sleep. He keeps telling me its not my fault but I still feel bad about it.

I'm not on any medication at the moment because when I was last on them they made me worse. The 3/4 months I was on them was a living hell for everyone involved. I could be fine one minute and the next I'd be balling my eyes out or getting really angry over nothing.

It doesn't help that over the last few days I've had 'friends' verbally tearing me apart so I've been very upset and very restless

Thank you for your help and kind words,

Leanne

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