nuts..

I have 2 job interviews tomorrow.. and i'm plagued by severe panic/anxiety/abdominal pains.

I suspect still I have celiac and i'm following a very strict gluten free diet.  I've heard some people respond super quick to the diet..others take months..3 months..10 months...

Hopefully I'll get through the job interviews tomorrow..I need to work asap...or sell my car and go on disability asap.. have bills due at the end of the month and I don't have the money to do it :(

I think I have cheated here and there on gluten by drinking this rice milk my parents buy.. unfortunately I found out they use barley extract in it so that's one screw up i've made.  I'll give lexapro another good month or so if I can deal with it..right now it's making my anxiety 10X worse..but i've heard it takes 2 weeks to get used to it.  I'll be glad when tomorrow is over with.  In a perfect world i'd work while i'm stuck on the ground not flying but ugh it's really hard to even leave the house right now...feel awful.