Where did the year go?

I am taking last shot - number 48 tomorrow night and will be done!  It has been a real journey for me.  It has been hard working and getting my daughter through her senior year.  I made it...why do I feel so sad?  Tears are forming now...just when you thought you weren't going to experience unexplained bouts of crying anymore...I hope and pray that I don't have any post tx problems...I pray that all the problems with my skin etc clear up damn it!  This is basically my last week of tx and I have missed two days of work.  I haven't missed any days of work yet and here I am in my last week appearing to be 'losing it' all of a sudden...Now I wish I had made journal entries throughout the entire course of my tx...it feels therapeutic.  Sianara (sp)