And on I go into to the valley

Today we try a bit harder...... Some days are harder than others...... The rain and clouds make it a little difficult to see the end result I am trying to achieve..... Sanity where the heck is it ......... How do I find it????? How am I going to fit in......... I whish I could take my own advice and just ride these things out........So the struggle goes on and on and on...... Pull yourself up there's always a willing and able foot to push you right back down...... Family issues that just seem to get worse each time I try to resolve them....... People say they love you and care about you then talk behind your back.....   Back stabbers....... oh s***t if you can't trust the family who can you trust????? So very confusing...... I gotta get away from all these two faced morons.......
Forgiveness is not one of my stronger suits....... Especially when the cut is so deep and to the bone...... Treading water today hope I don't sink....... I'm in so far over my head don't know what to do........... The lifeline I seek is so far out of reach............... So many weak spots along the way........I gotta do something I don't know what but something........ I thought the medecine was working to a degree.............. I'm not supposed to feel like this again.................. Damn clouds............... LET THE SUN THROUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!