im not dead.

hi there all

so sorry i havent been on here for ages..
i had to take some time off and re- elvaluate my life and where im going!
cant say i got too far though but im not giving up :-)

Thanks for all your lovely emails,
i will try and reply to them all-
i just thought it would be easier to write a big post to answer all ur questions
..the main one being that yes- im still alive!!

so ive been seeing a therapist for a while now
and am taking anti- depressents
BAD I KNOW...
BUT... they have helped so much in lifting my mood
and especially with the anxiety.
but hopefully i wont need to take them soon
but i got to the point where i was going to give anything a go to make me feel better.

soooo yah :-)

um....
not much else to report...i lost weight, gained some and am loosing weight again.
im sick too which doesnt help.
(i have a head cold.)
but therapy is helping with that too- ill do anything not to go into treatment and be fed with a tube!!
so im trying my hardest,
wish me luck :-)

love to u all,
thanks for all your support and kind words.
ill try and post more often ok!
but im so busy i cant promise
xxx

xxxxxx