!! Mother's Day It's Happy and It's Sad !!

My mother is still alive and I know that she wishes she did not know I am an addict. Like you, my mother was a pill head when I was growing up. She stopped with the pills but began a horrible battle with transfering addictions. She went from spending, to food, from food to exercise obsession. An old injury caused her to stop working out and she went right back to food. She is a 260 pound woman in a size 4 frame. I know what it is like to spend your life swearing that you would never be like her and then one day you wake up to realize you were her all along. My mother is so sad that I am battling this. I know your mother knows that you love her and knew that you loved her when she was alive. We are addicts and we are slaves to whatever holds us. You are a wonderful mother who is trying to break the cycle.

Hi,
Just read your post and i really feel for you but i'm sure your mother understood why you acted the way you did, you were young how could you understand addiction ?. i'm a recovering alcoholic i know my son had a hard time with me when i was performing, we accept that our kids can't understand but you did so many good things too like looking after your brothers and sisters and taking that burden off your mum, i'm sure she loved you very much .
It's easy after a death to give ourselves a hard time, your mother would never want that i'm sure she would tell you to give yourself a break.
Get back to me please, i'd like to chat to you.

Katie

Hey lisa good morning i just read your entery about your mother sad how others are capable of making us feel the pain i dont believe deep down your mother thought you did not care i think she had no way of expressing her true feelings for what she was dealing with i believe deep down my alacholic hubby loves me hell i already know know one else would love him like i would and it would take a harsh move to make him realize what he has at home i have learned through your words that we cant change thenm or fix our loved ones that is up to them we can choose to do only what we can for them and for only so long i believe my husband already knows he has a problem it is just easier for him to deni it then it is to face the fact that they did this not only to them selves but yet to everyone they love ,it nver fails we are left to feel the regret and hurt and pain somehow we have carried it with us in hopes it will be okay lalter yet we both know is does not it just becomes as easy as we make it for ourselves since they cant help im sorry you felt your mothers day was saddened by something you could not change to begin with did you see your kids and how was hubby yesterday was it a good day for you please let me know how your feeling today keep your chin uo and deep down i really do believe god works in strang ways im sure your mother knows you lived her im sure she can feel it im sorry lisa that today brought you miked feeling about what mothers day is it made me sad to think of all my past with my mother and yet some how i just did not branch off on her yesterday i just felt numb and kinda involved in the day felt like i floated through it kinda quiet today though and i slept way to much this morning im always tired i think theses meds are off again bummercause im just tired of the pills  and yet if i dont take them i seem to be a freaked out paranoid someone i dont know anymore ,well enough on that i hope this reaches you and makes you realize your not alone im thinking about you to if you want to chat plaese right back im here  have a nice afternoon Lisa take care and remember we cant change the past we just have to live with it the best was we can i hope i said something that may have helped you you always seem to say the right things for me and try to look forward to more positive things have a better afternoon LIsa im thinking of you
Theresa