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One thing after another! GRRRRR!
Jul 17, 2009 04:57PM
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Ugh I swear when it rains it pours!! Get a call today from the nurse telling me that the doc doesnt think my hcg numbers are going down sufficently! So have another blood test on Monday instead of Wed next week! I asked what that meant and she tells me that sometimes the placenta can leave behind some cells that just wont die! So I will have to go in for an IV (medication) treatment in the office next week!
I was just starting to convice myself that nothing more bad can happen and trying to ease my stress and fustration and this has to happen to bring it back up in my face! I am so aggrevated and stressed out as it is...I just want to feel like im moving forward with the ttc! And its taking forever! Ive never wanted AF to come more than now! At least if AF came I'd feel like things were moving forward and have something to look forward to! Ive just been feeling like Im stuck in this never ending nightmare for the past 3wks! The days go by but I feel like its the same day over and over again! I just want to scream! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was just starting to convice myself that nothing more bad can happen and trying to ease my stress and fustration and this has to happen to bring it back up in my face! I am so aggrevated and stressed out as it is...I just want to feel like im moving forward with the ttc! And its taking forever! Ive never wanted AF to come more than now! At least if AF came I'd feel like things were moving forward and have something to look forward to! Ive just been feeling like Im stuck in this never ending nightmare for the past 3wks! The days go by but I feel like its the same day over and over again! I just want to scream! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I totally hear ya!!! It took over 7 weeks for my to finally get AF!! I thought she would never show!!! 2 weeks after DC my beta was still 83, then 2 weeks after that(totally thought it would be zero) still at 11. Finally, 3 weeks after that (this was when AF finally arrived) it was almost 0. Just try not to get discouraged....she will eventually show her ugly face and then you and your DH can start trying again for your little miracle :)
I know this was an older posting, but I feel like I was also writing that same post about 7 months ago....after my m/c in Feb. it took me 6 weeks to get AF and we were told to wait 2 full cycles until ttc....it seemed LIKE FOREVER....unfortunately, we are still ttc but I am hoping that is not the case for you.....good luck and i'm sorry for your loss....
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