Everything at once...

Can't say everything now because of our stalker - everything has to be after the fact, but my aunt died.  It's very hard because I was going to visit with the family and got sick - the way normal people do - and this is the aunt that took my older sister and I in when my mom tried to kill herself.  If an adult can't cope and is willing to let her 9, 7, and 2 year old find her... you can imagine it was hard enough before the foster home.  We were young.  So my aunt and uncle and cousins took us in and made us feel wonderful until my dad went to court and was able to get custody.  Everything turned out well, but the death not only hurts because of my deep love of her and our family, but it hurts because I have to relive the reason I have such love for the woman with a huge heart.  I love you so much Aunt Martha.  Because of you and my uncle and cousins, I have faith that I am not stupid white trash-which is how I feel every now and then.  Sigh.  Nothing nice to say, so go elsewhere!