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Oh man...when will I be able to post something positive?

May 15, 2008 09:39AM - 8 comments

This is me just yelling, not whining, just yelling out my feelings, so please excuse:

OMG!  WTF am I gonna do and how the F am I supposed to do it?!!?!??!  I'm doin' what I can right now, but damn if this pain is not gonna kill me.  This is so freakin' ridiculous!  Tried two things for the pain yesterday, and I'm just hurtin' more than ever.  I'm shaking, can't hardly move, and so freakin' anxious it's just not even jokable anymore.  I feel like I'm being tortured, and I'm wondering on whose arm I can tap to get out of the device.  

I'm trying to bear in my that this may be worse before better, but logic aside, just surving until some amount of relief comes is looking about as possible or enjoyable as walking all the way across the country to have my eyeball pierced or something.  Seriously, real seriously, I'm at a loss for how to live through each minute, and each hour right now.  

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by road2recovery, May 15, 2008 09:55AM
JAQ----U have helped me so much understanding so many things that happened to me at the hospital...I apprciate that sooo much...
I am worried about you???  What kind of pain is it??  I havn't talk to you in a while so please let me know...
love to u
r2r

by GoingToMakeIt, May 15, 2008 11:07AM
I so wish this would get better for you. You are such a dear and do not deserve this at all.

by sadinmichigan, May 15, 2008 02:05PM
Oh girl...My heart is aching for you..i wish i had a magic wand or potion..something!!! What exactly is hurting..your back?? I am so sorry..kudos to you for hanging on..It sure the hell doesn't sound easy...what kinds of meds are you trying..maybe it's time to bring out the big guns..You can't live like this...or have quality of life like this...i wish i could help!! ARGHHHH

by Jacqui805, May 15, 2008 02:10PM
Dude...I have been fighting hard but I'm losing the battle...Only moments ago I just got off the phone with the doctor's office and made an appt for Monday...You have no idea...I WOULD NOT DO THAT if it weren't really really really really bad, and it is..I've been too afraid to go, and still don't want to but I'm feeling....well, we'll just leave that part blank. I've been trying a chiropractor this week, and tomorrow and accupuncturist too.  I have tried Ibuprofen, Aleve, and aspirin...am wearing Mineral Ice and actual ice as we speak.  I have severe pain in between my shoulder blades, and in my neck.  

by mommy52713, May 15, 2008 02:24PM
jacquie, I am so sorry you are hurting so bad. I know your feelings on the pain meds but I believe sometimes we just dont have a choice I know some might not agree but what about your quality of life? You do what you have to do to get some reliefe and I will send some positive energy your way

by ready2help, May 15, 2008 03:00PM
I am unfamiliar with your situation but I can hear your despair and frustration. If you are not already, Please work with a true pain specialist - usually, an MD (most of them start as anesthesiologists) with special training and certification. Be honest about your history and what's going on - there are many, many ways to treat all sorts of pain. New meds and med combinations are always coming out.

On the alternative medicine side, I would try the acupuncture, there is a specific yoga for those in pain, meditation (lots of people use this for pain control), massage, cognitive therapy, eating really healthy and taking certain supplements (depending on your issues). I have recently read about pranic healing, which is a type of energy work - claim to help many different maladies. I think a combo of Western and Eastern modalities gives you the best of both worlds.

I have a feeling you know this already - but if not, I hope this helps and you find your way through the chronic pain maze - it's tough and all encompassing, I hear ya.

Sending healing wishes your way.......

:)

by lostdreams, May 15, 2008 03:11PM
Jacqui..........i'm so sorry you are hurting so bad, if i could take away the pain, i would. I will most certainly pray for you and send healing wishes your way. I hope the pain ease's off soon.

You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself.

by omanlover, May 15, 2008 03:18PM
i am really sorry to hear that! you should go to a specialist first! i believe you used many things in short time! give your body chance to relax! & stop testing what ever you find in front of you, i know you suffer, but be carefull!
wish you get better sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon^.^

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