Nov 23, 2007 10:37AM
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Five or so months age my wife started taking hydrocodone for pain. She was fairly guarded with me about when she took it and how much. If I attempted to "pry" she would get very deffensive and accuse me of trying to step in on her better judgements, this offended her greatly. Over the past few months she seems to go in and out of using the drug for episodes of pain and possibly at times for feeling better overall. I admit there is a lot that I don't know about the details of what she is or has been doing in her attempts to manage a therapy that works. Don't get me wrong she is a very brilliant woman and has a mind to tackle a lot if she is converted to a cause. Anyway, I wondered if the pain she was experiencing when the drug "wore off" was related to the drug and if so how much could it be?? She believed, as did I, that the pain was due to some undiagnosed syndrome or disease. After seeing her go on a rollercoaster ride for months with this I have become more and more concerned. Sometimes a streatch of days would go by when I would come home every day to find her in bed sleeping off medication. She would be up into the night and then down for big "naps" three to four hours in the middle of day or late evening. I have to admite I selfishly want her with me doing family stuff and spending time with me, I miss her, I mean I ache to have her be gentle to me and initate interaction between us (and I don't mean sex) just walking talking, hug, touch, shareing stuff. She is so distant to me and seems to have a world of her own. She believes I have brought this upon myself due to a critical nature with her, I admit my short coming and am trying hard, hard, hard, to suite her. Anyway thats another topic.
But, here is where I am at today. She went through prescription of 50 pills Lortab 5/500 in 7 or 8 days. The day before Thanksgiving she is on the phone desperatly trying to get throught to her primary to get a refill. The office won't accomidate her and she ends up without meds. I believe with each perscription she hopes to have the underlying illness maybe get better so when the drug wears off she will be done, but it never happens. She starts getting flu like muscle aches and headaches and terrible sense of well being and goes back for another prescrip. her primary wants her to get further testing as does she. I don't know? am I in denial, is she in denial? Is she experiencing withdrawal and dosen't know it. She has been about a day and a half without. Hot baths, lots of Ibuprofin yesterday and last night, she really feels bad, like an illness. I don't know what to do? I am afraid she is going through W/D but will go in today and get a new prescript and be back to square one. I am also afraid she may have some genuine underlying pain and needs some relief from it, but how much is one or the other?? How long does one need to go without the drug to know if its W/D they are experiencing? If it is W/D she has experienced this several time and dosen't want to go throught it, she just cried and cried when she foung out she couldn't get a refill for the weekend. Please any advice would comfort me a lot - John
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