Jul 28, 2009
I read all of these thing online and it says its free or whatever and it always ends up costing something. For people who dont have credit cards it makes it difficult to try anything. Im feeling so desperate lately that Im willing to try anything, even if I know its stupid. Something has to make me feel better... Even things that actually sound like they are going to work I cant afford. I cant even afford to buy food for myself never mind something thats going to help me lose weight. The more I try the more I want to give up. Depression is getting the better of me. I can be so positive but as soon as one little thing goes wrong or its not instant I just give up. I need to relax and destress from all of this worry that Im constantly doing, I just dont know how. Even in my sleep it happens to me. I dream about everything I think about during the day and it all goes horribly wrong. I just want to scream. Ive been writing a lot of journals lately... I dont know why either. Its not like I say anything important. Just need some kind of attention that Im not getting at home I guess. Maybe someone to talk to that I dont know and wont judge me...