May 17, 2008 02:02PM
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Today is my 11th wedding anniversary. One year ago today, blissfully ignorant of the pending attack that my body would soon undergo, my husband and I were happily drinking champagne as we flew over the Atlantic on our way to England, to celebrate 10 great years of marriage. I felt healthy and energetic as we walked for miles across the city of London, the rolling hills of the Cotswolds, and beaches of the south coast.
Health-wise things have gone downhill for me ever since that time. But our union is still strong, I think maybe even stronger in the face of my diagnosis. I’m still amazed and grateful for my good fortune after all of these years, for the man who continues to stand by me through thick and thin. He is loyal, patient, generous, kind, and just all around solid.
I still have so much going on physically that is unresolved, and treatment issues to sort out. One of the hardest parts of this has been the way my MS has put everything that we love to do on hold. All travel plans since September were cancelled, and it has been a long and dreary winter.
But on this anniversary of the day of our marriage, I’m looking ahead to this coming year with optimism, and the belief that I will adapt to these unwelcome changes in my life and start actively living again. I’ve come to accept that if I keep putting thing off until I feel better, as in, back to my old self, I will be waiting forever while life passes by. It’s time to come out of hibernation and start making plans. Not just for my own well-being, but because my husband deserves to have a better life than the one he’s been forced by circumstance to live for these past many months.
It is time to start moving forward.
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