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First Panic Attack!

Aug 04, 2009 - 0 comments
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Well, today i had my first panic attack in a very very long time! My GF mother was stressing out about something (she is a very stressed person i think it was about getting home on time to have lunch!! Totally stupid!!) and she was driving in the car like a crazy person, she was shouting and drivers at my GF cos she was annoyed with her over something earlier and swerving in and out of cars, she nearly hit one, and was speeding for again down narrow streets! and i just lost it, i couldn't hold it together it was to much, i could have screamed at her for being such an idiot! i started hyperventilating and when we arrived home alive thank god, i just droke down and started to cry right in front of everyone, i just totally couldn't control my emotions after what just happened, and i hope i made her feel terrible cos she put my life and my GF's as risk with her teenage fit cos she was angry! i thought parents were supposed to be MORE mature than there kids no??? anyway, i ran upstairs and couldn't breath, my GF ran up after me and tried to comfort me till i stopped crying and got my breath back, my heart was jumping out of my chest, i couldn't breath and i was totally uncontrollably crying it was weird, i haven't felt that in a long time, and i was so angry i let myself get into a situation where it could happen again! I went and told her that i will never get in a car with her again! it was a hard day but its over now and im ok again....

was very upsetting and hard on my though, i feel very tired and weak after it all... hope i feel better tomorrow and from now on im taking my bike if that idiot wants me to go somewhere! :( and i was doing so well....

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