Update!!!

Well, we are moving my mom in with us in a couple weeks to help her out so McKenzi's nursery is going to have to wait for a couple or a few months. Thats okay though cause I havent reallyl had the ambition to do it the past week or so anyway. But moving my mom in will help her out and us too.

There is so much going on right now, and the ups and downs of my emotions are really getting to me. My doc upped my Zoloft dose yesterday and wants me back in next week for a follow up to monitor me. Had a bad weekend and Friday was the worst. I wont go into too much detail, but I will say that I have never been more scared to lose somebody in my life. My fiance' has distanced himself quite a bit and I feel like he doesnt even want to be around me. The past couple days he has wanted us to be around friends instead of the usual cuddle on the couch at home. I am a bit confused and lost right now and so unsure if he really wants to be with me or not. I just really dont feel like he does. I know being pregnant can really throw off emotions and cause some drastic mood swings and reactions, but if that is really the only problem, then it is destroying my relationship. I have a temper anyways, and I have been trying to work on it, but every time I turn around it seems I am saying something wrong. Or at least that is what my fiance' tells me. I am just so lost and feeling so lonely right now, I dont know what else to do. I am sure everything will turn out okay in the end, but right now I am more scared and feeling so alone that I dont know what to do.