Aug 28, 2009
Things have changed There's a traffic light on my corner. Its there because I wrote the city government. People have been quite thankful because there were multiple car accidents with fatalities before. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to photograph the local park (city regulations) but the gates around the park were strengthened. There won't be any more episodes of arson. But I won't tell the people who were thankful who is responsible for the traffic light. There is no need to boast or try to take credit. And I'll be moving onto other things. And any way its not "my" traffic light. Many city officials agreed it was a good idea and coordinated it. And one must not forget the people who constructed the traffic lights. Let's say it was a group effort. I just called it to their attention.
Now let's talk about new treatments. Today I went to a poetry reading. I've built up a tolerance to the Flexaril and Clonidine and could hardly talk because of dysphagic choking spasms and was having off and on dystonic reactions. I said I would not be reading again until I could find better treatment. I was experiencing waves of dissociation, dysphoria and synathesia from tardive dysphrenia. People looked shocked and horrified. But when I look back the homeless man who was there who cycles on and off psychiatric treatment and could clearly benefit from it wasn't doing so well either as regards standard psychosis. His psychosis has had consequences where he ended up on the wrong side of the law. I'm glad I remained in treatment all these years (and remember what I take is psychiatric now, even if its in clinical study). But don't think it stops there. I entered the Access A Ride van and spoke with another person there who has multiple sclerosis. They were working on a documentary about their disability. I spoke with them about the non profit I coordinate. We traded website information. And once I took the ginkgo which boosts dopamine the dystonic spasms began to stop as well as the dissociation, dysphoria and tardive tourettism which together is tardive dysphrenia as well as the tardive psychosis and tardive dysmentia. The Vimpat is helpful but just needs an adjunct. I explained how I was working with the system regarding new treatment modalities as regards antipsychotics (glutamate antagonists, officially NMDA receptor modulates) and to identify, treat and prevent tardive psychosis, tardive dysphrenia and tardive dysmentia. My psychiatrist did believe the Vimpat was working on the tardive conditions (which he and my movement disorders specialist believe I meet the criteria for) and given one more month there will be a potential outreach for the case study. And perhaps a chance to provide testimony on a higher level. And a high level correspondence regarding my glycine recovery already returned. But of this I must preserve confidentiality. But just like all the people in my neighborhood will benefit from the traffic light, especially elderly people and people with disabilities, my mental recovery and neurological recovery if duplicated might very well as well but just like the traffic light I take things one step at a time..