cant stop crying

What is past is past.  Start again anew.  You have been doing great and will continue in your quest.

You ARE strong --- look what you've done so far.  Besides, it was a holiday - you are supposed to enjoy it and that often means eating things you don't normally eat.  The fact that you ate cookies and didn't want them or like them - can go down as a lesson learned - you don't HAVE to eat food just because it's there.  

The thing I've been trying to do lately and it's working for me: is to eat EVERY time I'm hungry, but ONLY when I'm hungry and to stop as soon as I get full.  If I eat EVERY time I get hungry (for food, not for something else) - then I don't let myself get so hungry that I binge or eat stuff I don't want.    

You are NOT a failure -- just pick yourself back up, give yourself permission to forgive yourself and move on........

Thanks Ladies, im very good at beating myself up,I set goals that are sometimes way to high then when i fail it proves to myself that im no good, i am working on this though it is taking sometime.

I totally understand how you feel. You were not in control. This is why I get so upset when I don't stick to the plan. I feel like if I'm not in control. I worry I'll fall back into my old habits. It's always in the back of my mind what if I do it again? What if I can't say no tomorrow? You should be able to have a little extra every now and then. Just try to plan it out so you don't feel out of control. Say, I'm going out and  _ _ _ _  is going to be my special treat for the day. This is what I try to do. It's good that you saw what you were doing and recognized how it made you feel. This will help keep you from doing it again. You are not a failure. Your doing great and I don't think your going to fall back into your old ways. Don't forget it's not that you had the cookies it's what you have after the cookies. Keep up the good work!