Sep 13, 2009
Asi type i feel like i shoudlnt be, i am not happy at all right now. i hope its just the cocaine i did 2 weeks ago. i have low testosterone levels too. i wanna get it out, i am not this type of guy i cant do th is anymore. no one can relate if they dont know me. i just had a really amzing moment where i could do anything but i lost it cause i didnt do action, i didnt do action for a while cause am afraid of losing someone i love. i dont want to leave, i want to leave cause am 20 and i hate being alone and by myself. i hope al this is from stress and its not a major problem. i could be extremely happy if i chose t oright now, but something is keeping me from it. and i cant figure it out.i tihnk i died of boredom and am trying to realzie i should be grateful for life. i never used to BE THIS WAY. EVER,. i want to look in the mirror and be happy again, that is what makes me happy cause i think i am perfect to me. evcetyghig i do i wish i could erase. whyt he **** do i feel like this? i am a very talented man wit a good life..........................
I used to think i was schtizo but i am not, it's just all in my head.