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I'm still having trouble at school

Sep 16, 2009 - 0 comments
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TIRED

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hostile

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school trouble

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Headache

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picture contest

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frame it

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sleep

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fan

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clunk clunk

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bruises

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Ambien

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sleeping meds

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ruler

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artist

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quiz

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spanish

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Biology

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guidence teacher

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teacher

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YAP

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shei

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shirt

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NAMI walk

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idiotic recluse

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hyena laugh

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Anxiety

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cupcakes

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steve

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The Day After Tomarrow

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video games

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cotton candy

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up

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mom

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Crying

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spicy taco

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pepper with garlic

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chipotle

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mild food

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vocational school



But I've backed off considerably, like I said I would. It's draining, to be hostile. Today especially. I'm surprised I didn't have a headache because last night I was up because the guilt of not drawing a picture was chewing me up. It had to be in by monday, I didn't frame it or anything anyways, but I worked really hard, for about three hours. It was considerably late and not sure why but I tried to climb out of my bed literally asleep on my knees and my fan was on and I very rarely do this, never this bad, but it did probably a full four rotations, clunk clunk clunking me over the head. I have a bruise the size of a large apple on the back right of my head, where I lean back on things. Prolly one of the worse bruises I've had on my head. My pictures of my house and I'm really self concious about it. It's strange, and I blush when I tell people, yeah, well, I drew it while considerably doped on sleeping meds. It's for one, the colors are strange, two, I used a ruler but refused to measure anything with more than my fingers. Three, I could not picture my house. I don't know why I never take a look at my house, but I couldn't make it mesh up. So I cut off the second and third floor and my side room, haha. It's a teeny house and it looks nice. But it's kindof overwhelming, you can't see it that well. I like it. But I don't want it hung up somewhere. I'm no artist, but I think it came out well.

We had a quiz in spanish and I just took forever and was indecisive and ultimately decided I wasn't doing it. Then it became apparent I would not be allowed a rain check, and I filled in answers. Loser. I just shut up and played along in Biology. It is apparent guidence teacher lied to me, and went ahead and talked to my teacher. My anxiety has increased; my lip is still split and they're chapped becasue I keep biting and licking them.

I had YAP. There were only a few of us. We designed the shirt for a walk, I guess I'll prolly do it. Today was Shei's last day for a while. I'm upset. She really ties the whole thing together for me. I'm such an idiotic recluse. But I laugh like a hyena when I'm nervous. It's fun. Anxious, but fun. She brought cupcakes! I love cupcakes.
Steve came over after. He interupted ME, I swear to you. But he wouldn't give up in saying I kept talking over him. I do sometimes, but I did not today. I was upset because he did it in front of my family and I got upset. I fell asleep after watching some The Day After Tomarrow and woke up all tucked in and he was playing video games, eating cotton candy. Ha. I watched some UP with my mom. Almost cried, but it gets sadder.

BTW CA I was forced to eat a spicy taco and I was heaving. Then I publicly refused to eat a pepper with garlic. I didn't think it would be too bad, but I was having trouble keeping the chipotle sauce down. I tossed it. They were all spicy. It really put into perspective what mild food I eat. My throat felt wierd all day. I hate it.

Now I need to sleep because I have no school tomarrow, but voc does.

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