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Sep 22, 2009 - 0 comments
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the wee small hours of Sunday the 20 of sept ... i gave in to the madness and tried to shut down the chaos that is my over filled mind. my morning pills that I had stopped taking about a month ago were taken all at once. I ended up in hospital.. I was released afternoon sunday. feeling worse than it ever was .. how could i be so self centered and self absorbed. The guilt is killing me. Strange thing is .. while i was in hospital it was the first time people actually took notice of what i was saying and feeling. That i found odd. In a weird way I didn't want to come home. I just wanted to stay there all safe and understood for the first time in my life.

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