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the violation felt with a vaginal ultrasound

Sep 26, 2009 - 0 comments
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vaginal

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ultrasound

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ovary

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Tumor

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Doctor

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first vaginal ultrasound

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fibroids

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uterine fibroids



i was ready to cry right there in the room when i had my first vaginal ultrasound.AWFUL!!!
i expected to have the doc say yep everything is normal but noooooooooooooooooooooooo. not so much
doc bedside manner........"so i'm sure you're aware of your fibroid tumor?"
me leaking tears from my eyes......."uh no. this is my first vaginal ultrasound" tumor?????
doctor bedside manner......"oh really? oh thats right. where usually they are benign. in most cases/lets see its 3, no 4 cm long. damn this printer wont work to take a pic."    5 more minutes of that and no more poking of my newly realized fibroid. dont cry dont cry. dont know what it will mean but dont cry.
doctor bedside manner......."so now we will count ur eggs today, its cd4" poke prod oops sorry poke prod does that hurt? 1,2,3,4,5,6/ yes 6 in right ovary. lets do the left now. poke poke twist poke. sorry does that hurt? i'm having trouble because the bowels are constantly moving but i wil get it. ten more minutes of excruciating poke prod poke prod. OH! there it is. it cant hide anymore. poke poke poke. does that hurt? sorry. 1,2,3,4. ok 4."
DONE!!!
then my questions...."whats to be done? saline ultrasound. k. then i ask, is that a normal count for eggs? well yes for a woman of YOUR age. wtf does that mean? yes no maybe
I'm confused and feel extremely violated but i wait to the let the tears flow til after i get in the car.
awful.

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