I have accepted

Two years ago I came here and was so overwhelmed at the time that I wrote the last entry.  I had always worked, been healthy, positive and all of a sudden was hit by numerous health issues.  They didn't creep up on me, instead they jumped me from behind and knocked me out.  I lost my job, home, all possessions and waited for disability.  I had to go on food stamps, get free county medical help and live in a studio with 5 cats and my husband and 27 year old son.  The treatment didn't work and physically I am in worse shape.....but.....I still have my family, the cats and a roof over my head, disability was approved although they have cut off my food stamps and I won't get medical until 2011!!  It is funny, go one step forward and two back.

I have learned that I cannot hide my head under the covers and pretend that this is not happening.  I have to reach out and care for others, letting people know about this virus and giving them hope, while they give me hope.  I need the community of others to share and cry with, to laugh and give hope to.

I cannot walk this path alone.  Not only am I dealing with death and poor health, but am also trying to prepare my son and husband for the future.  I do not want to do it with a lot of negative energy, but with laughter and love.

I am so glad that this site is here and I sincerely hope to get to know all the people here and to share and grow.

Together, we can slay the dragon and have a future!