Jun 08, 2008 12:03AM
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Well, I was still shaking the next morning after all the wooha carry on, and I knew it was not a good thing! I realised it was the total unexpected, caught on the hop, unprepared factor of my sister's attack which had undone me. She had done this to me about 3 years ago too. I rarely see her or talk to her at the best of times, as she really has issues, and I am not into the stuff she is, so no real need to talk to her anyway.
I had a nice long shower ( I have short ones daily so a long one was justified in the water saving factor!) I then thought, hmmm..I know, I will ring a professional mental health worker and see what they think, if anything they can do. He was really good. He told me all I had already mentioned to my friend about the situation the night before, and he told me I did what was right, trying to not get drawn into her silly games. He said, "You need to look after YOU, you've been through a hell of a lot yourself and you sure don't need her BS" Which was comforting to me.
I said I will get a phone with caller ID on it and just not answer her calls in the future. He agreed that was a brilliant idea. I had thought it was my other sister who is about to have a baby, so at 12.30am who wouldn't jump to the phone! He understood that, and said, Look she obviously is looking for attention and is stupidly jealous of your cancer scare amongst other things, so just let her be, and in time every one else will get jackbleeeeeeep of her too, she will then probably REALLY try to harm herself or have a little hissy fit, then she will REALLY get attention she was trying to avoid in the first place; it's called Help by a psychiatrist.
So that made me feel much better. He is right, if she really did want to kill herself she would have done it by now. She is nothing than a kid in a store throwing a tantrum , realising it works for attention and doing it more each time.
SO! I went to the local supermarket, bought my self a HUGE bunch of flowers and said out loud, "I am a GOOD person, and I deserve the right to be free of toxicity, including cancer, people, and situations. I am SPECIAL!"
So, thanks to those who commented on my previous journal. Your support means more than you guys will ever know. Wish we all lived close by coz I'd take you all down the pub for a free beer!
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