Double Gym

i really should exercise more. i quit smoking and i quit popping pills...so i really should replace it with a healthy habit. ha.

they say exercise really boosts mood too.

Yeah i felt great after the gym and went to the grocery buy some healthy food.. Since i quit smoking and pop pills and weed i have money to spend into some good things! There are so many hormones secreted while you exercise! Really a big mood booster indeed.

I'm still having a lot of anxiety in the gym and i still have some irrational thoughts about heart attack while doing cardio but it's ok i jus need to focus more on what i'm doing rather than thinking about it. I'm always dizzy in the gym but when i leave i feel great and not dizzy anymore... I sugest you the gym. I'm addicted to it now, i go there everyday hehe

yeah.  i was smoking over a pack a day and with prices going to nearly $5 a pack, i had to quit. i made me too mad to buy them anymore. so far i haven't smoked in 6 months...a huge accomplishment because i still want to every day. i'm hoping that will go away someday. but that has turned into a huge savings though. well sort of...i don't have a savings, so i'm not entirely sure where it got spent...but it went somewhere. probably food, unfortunately. haha. thats another reason i should exercise.

matt

2 weeks without smoking - 3 months or more without speed - and i didnt buy weed for at least 4 months but i did take a few shots from my friend's when i was drinking beer... Can't smoke when i'm sobber anymore it causes my anxiety to punch in . I'm sad tho that i had to leave some friends behind because i stopped speed... i used to spend at last 1 weekends on 2 with them doing speed and playing video games all weekend but since i stoped i never called them anymore.. anyway they are stuck on this drugs and i can't support people on this drug while im sobber. At least i have many other friends that don't do it hehe my best friends don't do speed at least!

well thats good. i always did my drugs alone...no one in my life even knows about it. i guess you could say i'm a really high functioning and secretive addict...not unlike many others who abuse prescription meds. part of me really hates the fact that not one single person ever caught on that i had such a bad addiction. but then again...how could i expect anyone to? i went to huge lengths to make sure the cat didn't get let out of the bag.

i've never done speed, but i'm really glad that i haven't. i'm sure i would like it. they say you get a really good high when you mix barbiturates and amphetamines together. i've never tried it and never intend to. one or two addictions are hard enough to control...let alone adding speed into the mix.

congrats on the 3 months without it. i've made it over a month without the downers...and it hasn't been fun. you can't let yourself do it even once, because if you do, you don't stop again.