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Well I guess it has been a while and maybe I should write something. As for the weight loss, not too good in that department right now. For about 2 months I was waking up about 4:30am to ride for an hour on my bike around my neighborhood, then it started to get cold, and well excuses after excuses started to build up of who knows what not to get up early and ride. Well, then I started just doing sit ups in the morning and drinking SlimFast and lots of water... Well that worked for about 2 weeks. Then I started to get lazy and depressed again. Emotional stress, stuff I feel like I can't handle at the time, then realize the next day, like always, that yes that I can handle it and that it wasn't so bad.
I am still learning about being in a relationship. It is tough, well I am making it more tough than it should be.
I am currently reading a book called "The Road Less Traveled" I have to say that it is an amazing book so far. I recommend it to ANYONE!! I am learning a lot about my self and my relationships. My fiancée checked it out at the Library for me. He read this a while back and recommended it to me. I understand a lot more now than then!

I am currently struggling with; weight, anxiety, anger, sexual integrity, codependency and i think thats it for now.
I am working in all these aspects each day at a time. I am joining a 12 step recovery next month.
I look forward to it!
I am currently in Celebrate Recovery, it has done so much for my life!!
I started going for my fiancée, for his recovery in alcohol and drugs, to be of support to him. But then I found my self wandering into small groups and continued to come every Friday. It is AMAZING!!  

Currently, I am going to be laid off work in a few weeks, so I am looking forward to some vacation time, then Off to find a new job, which I know will be tough :( but I have to do it. We all gotta make a livin' !!