That I wait for all year, every year. This was the fourth year, actually. I was not a boy. The first year I wore a cape, the second and third I was male, I'm awesome at it. This year I just put on a lot of makeup and a dress and tights incase I fell on my face and exposed myself. I looked damn pretty, if my opinion's ever mattered before. It was scary, expecially since we had to go by ourselves. I went through all the people in my group (Purple) and decided Alex would cry and run away (She did), Richie would leave (He did), Nick would laugh (He did), and Jamie was the most likely to carry me back downstairs if need be (He did, twice). I found a baseball glove. But not the one I was supposed to be looking for, apparently. Ah well. I didn't get killed at all, but I did scream like a baby. A lot. It was great this year. I just didn't like that there were rooms I never went in, because we didn't go up many times like we usually travel in groups. It was good though, anyways. The guy was ruthless, the game took hours. Afterwords I was hit with a bout of shyness and loneliness and I wanted to try but I was gone like a limp ****. There was no social butterfly in there. I couldn't even talk. I ended up leaving early because I just looked like a burden and I couldn't figure out what to do about it. On top of that we were watching Texas Chainsaw. Which was bad becasue I don't need anymore scaries to look for at night, and because the first and only time I've seen a Chainsaw movie was a long time ago. With someone who no longer exists to me and I do not like to be reminded of. And it ate away at me the whole ten minutes I watched it. Or tried, anyways. I had to go home.
In the morning me, mom, jon, steve went pumpkin/apple picking. In the pouring rain. I had a lot of fun. It was my idea, and I made us go in the rain. We NEED pumpkins for jody and tim's tomarrow. So there. I really love to go to those places. I love picking out my pumpkin, and apples. Even though I apolygize to all the ones I don't pick, and who are rotting, and dropped on the ground. It makes me so sad. We got a lot of apples. I ate a lot of them. Yummy, yummy, yummy. Mom's gonna make apple crisp. And we're going to jody and tim's tomarrow. And it's gonna be fun. Aaaaand I saw goats this morning! I want a goat like you wouldn't believe. They're so wonderful. I can't look at those faces without melting. Me and Steve are going to get a goat and name him Jeffery. And we're gonna have doggies cause of the murder really made me nervous >_< (plus my dog is awesome) and ferrets cause I love ferrets so very much and fish cause I could never turn down a fish and a guinea pig cause they need so much love and I can do that!
Ok I'm really, really tired. I'm overwhelmed today. It's one of those days where I'm really, really everything. I also am truly worried about the strange limp I take on walking down the stairs. My knees are killing me. I sprung blood today and it scared me as usual. I just want it to stop. HEAL. I can't wipe this angry look off my face and my head really hurts.
I've got a burn on my wrist from a sheetpan on Thursday! Go away burn!